Our sweet little Afton Jean returned to her Heavenly Father

Yesterday we said goodbye to our sweet baby Afton Jean. It was the toughest and sweetest day of our lives. Our sweet Afton Jean passed away late in the afternoon, after spending the entire day surrounded by her family and grandparents.

Our first day in the NICU (Tuesday) was amazingly calm. It was one of those ‘no-news-is-good-news’ types of day. We knew the road ahead would be filled with challenges, so an uneventful day is huge. Unfortunately, we were not so lucky on Wednesday (our second day). Afton had her first head ultrasound and the Neonatologists discovered significant brain injury due to lack of blood to her brain. The injury covered large portions of her occipital and parietal lobes, along with additional damage to her temporal lobe. It is unknown if the injury happened at birth (possibly related to my placental abruption) or prior to delivery, but the damage was extensive. After hearing this heartbreaking news, they asked us both to invite our parents down for a formal meeting in one of their offices so they could help us understand the impact of this injury. We were in shock and so saddened to hear this.

We sat with our parents and listened (heads spinning) to the doctors as they explained the extent of Afton’s injury and how it would impact the quality of life for our baby girl. It was devastating. Our hopes and dreams for her were crushed. (tears) The neonatologists explained that based on Afton’s early gestational age and small-small size, her statistical chances of survival were already small (less than 10%) without a major incident. The injury to her brain was more than a major incident.

The doctors were also concerned about Afton’s PDA – a hole in her heart that is natural prior to birth and normally closes when a full-term baby takes their first breath. It is not unusual for the PDA to initially remain open on a preemie, but hopefully it closes on it’s own. If the PDA doesn’t close on it’s own or through medication, surgery is required. The size of Afton’s PDA was a concern, and the doctor’s were not hopeful that it would close on it’s own. Surgery was also not a viable option due to Afton’s small size.

We were not ready to hear this. We were not ready to accept these scenarios. We cried a lot that day (and since). We prayed a lot that day (and since).

Over the following days, we continued to monitor Afton’s progress through multiple scans (heart and head) and received feedback from multiple NICU docs inside and outside of our hospital. We were told that ultimately, it would be Afton herself who would provide the most valuable feedback based on how her progress was trending. When the doctors sat us down on Saturday for our third consultation in four days and explained that the injury to Afton’s brain was worsening, we knew our time with her was short.

We spent as much time with her over the weekend as we could, and she even had the privilege of her own personal ‘Aiden experience’ (note to self: NICU’s and 3-yr old boys do not mix).

Recognizing that it would be our final day with our sweet baby girl, we arranged to have our friend Collin Kartchner come and shoot some photos and video of our little family and Afton’s grandparents. We wanted to capture our memories with her forever.

On this bittersweet day, Kyle was able to give sweet Afton a name and a blessing, and after another 10 minutes of hugs, kisses and tears, our parents took our kids and we were left alone with Afton and her nurses. We weren’t sure what to expect from the process, but what we received was truly a blessing. Kyle and I were able to spend the next 6 hours holding our baby girl, free from most of the tubes and wires that dominated her week on this earth. 6 hours of bonding to catch up for a week of being separated by her isolette. 6 hours of hugs, kisses, tears, smiles and the sweetest spirit you have ever felt. We told her we loved her and that we were so grateful for how she blessed our lives. Then we told her again. And again. It was the first and last time I got to hold my sweet baby girl.

When Afton knew we were finally ready to say goodbye (and not a minute before), she returned to her Heavenly Father. (1000 tears)

As tough as today was, it was remarkably sweet, and such a huge blessing. As my sister Becky pointed out, how often does a child get the undivided attention of both parents for 6 straight hours hearing nothing but how much they are loved and adored? How often does a family get the chance to do all the things we did today before they lose a child? We know that Afton is a part of our family forever and we cannot begin to explain how blessed we feel to have experienced this past week with her.

This whole experience has been filled with minor (and major) miracles that have sustained us and confirmed that people are good and God is great. Not wanting to skim through the recognition of those who have provided so much support the past three weeks – and wanting the focus of this post to be on our sweet Afton Jean – I will post a follow-up post soon sharing the amazing support and sacrifice we have benefited from. So many people stepped up to make sure things fell in place during our most difficult time. We are so grateful for you all.

After a whirlwind week of heartbreak and sweet blessings, we are so full of gratitude for the sweet seven days that our baby girl graced our lives. Our lives are forever changed for good. I can’t wait to tell you all about our sweet baby girl and her amazing spirit that was WAY bigger than her little body could hold. There’s so much more to share, but the events of the last few days, have left us exhausted.

Thank you all for your sweet prayers and encouragement through this most trying time. We have been OVERWHELMED by your love and support.

*All images via Collin Kartchner Studios – Thank you Collin, for capturing such a special day in our lives.

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Comments

  1. 1

    Dear friends. My heart goes out to you. Know that we love you, or thoughts and prayers will be with you in the coming days and weeks.

    xoxo

  2. 2

    Kami… My heart is filled with love for you and your family right now. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  3. 3

    Oh Kami…my heart is heavy. Love you.

  4. 4

    She is just beautiful. My prayers are with you and your sweet family.

  5. 5

    Praying Jesus’s sweet comfort over your family.

  6. 6

    She is gorgeous, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  7. 7

    Such a beautiful post for a beautiful baby girl. My thought, prayers and love are with you and your whole family. Love you Kami! xoxo

  8. 8

    Kami, oh how I want to wrap my arms around you and cry with you. My heart is breaking for you. I *know* your pain. I lost a little girl, Allison, when she was just a bit smaller than Afton.

    Praying for you and your family.

  9. 9

    Dear Kami,

    I know there are no words.. it has been 11 years since we lost our son Gabriel to a placental abruption… You and your family are in my heart.

    Maddie

  10. 10

    Kami, my heart goes out to you and your sweet family. That precious baby knew so much love in her short time here and will continue to know the love you surrounded her with. While nothing can even hope to take away the pain of your loss, I’m so glad knowing you had the opportunity to hold and cherish your sweet Afton for even a few short moments. Hold those adorable children of yours close, and know that people are praying for you. xo

  11. 11

    Kami….my heart is broken. May Heavenly Father bless your sweet family during this time.

  12. 12

    What a sweet sweet post for such a beautiful baby girl!! you all are in my prayers and thoughts Kami!

  13. 13

    What a beautiful girl and beautiful images of your family.
    She will never be forgotten…
    My heart and prayers are with you all during this time..

  14. 14

    Dear Kami and Kyle and family,

    My heart is breaking for you as well. Praying that you will be able to feel the peace and comfort of His love for you. Love you my friend. Wish I could be there to hug and support you through your pain and sorrow! Know that I am thinking of you and your family always!

  15. 15

    Such an amazing post and what beautiful photos. My prayers are with you and your family.

  16. 16

    I love you, I love you.

    This quote from Elder Nelson has been a strength to me, and my family, and some dear friends. And reminds me that even though we know that God’s plan is perfect and eternal. It doesn’t make this life any less difficult.

    “We can’t fully appreciate joyful reunions later without tearful separations now. The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life.”

    My prayers will be fervent on your behalf tonight. Love you, Lara

  17. 17

    Reading this from a hotel room in Vegas. I’m supposed to be celebrating my birthday and waiting for my husband to wake up… and all I can do is sit here and sob. Prayers for your family and for all of your broken hearts.

  18. 18
    Valerie Reid says:

    I am so amazingly sorry. My heart pours out to you. Praying, for you and your sweet family. May God’s peace rest over you.

    Valerie

  19. 19

    Oh Kami, even looking at her in her pictures, one can completely feel of her truly amazing spirit. Thank you for sharing this post. I pray for the angels of heaven to continue to surround you and your beautiful family.

  20. 20

    Oh Kami, my heart is in shreds for your loss. Please know that I’m praying for you and your family. Much love.

  21. 21

    Kami –

    My heart is breaking for you and your sweet family. Beautiful photos. I am so glad you have those to remember your sweet little Afton. I am praying for you all. Love you.

    xoxo
    Jen

  22. 22

    Oh Kami… Praying for all of you right now. All my love to you…

  23. 23

    Kami,

    I don’t know what to say but I’m sorry, even though that is horribly inadequate. I am so proud of you for the strength you emanated with your beautiful words in tribute to your beautiful daughter and family. My heart is broken for you, but I’m so glad you were able to have those hours to cherish her and know that you’ll be with her again someday. We will keep you and your family in our prayers.

    Holly

  24. 24

    God Bless. Your family will be in our prayers.

  25. 25

    I do not know you and have never heard of you until I saw the link on Tidy moms facebook page. Within 30 seconds of seeing your page, tears were streaming from my eyes. Bless you and your family. I am so glad you got the time you did with Afton. The opportunity to catch that in pictures was so bittersweet. May you all become a stronger family unit with that sweet little girls time with you as a family.

  26. 26

    I am SO very sorry for your deep loss. Prayers of comfort for your family during this horribly difficult time. It burns my heart to see such suffering and pain. Holding my kids closer today and remembering a loving Heavenly Father who has a plan, however awful it may be.

  27. 27

    Oh Kami, prayers for you, your family and your sweet little girl Afton. And what a sweet tribute to her precious life here on Earth. Hugs…

  28. 28

    Kami & Family,
    You are so strong, faithful and amazing. Thank you for sharing this private, special moment with us. We all love and support you and are continuing to keep you in our prayers. PLEASE let us know if you need anything at all.

    Love you,
    Shelley and Cason

  29. 29

    My heart breaks for you. You are stronger than I ever could be. Prayers to you and your family during this excruciating time.

  30. 30

    Kami – I have no words. I’m so so sorry. These are such sweet and beautiful photos. I am so happy that you had 6 hours to spend with her. Those are the tender little miracles and mercies that come in the middle of our biggest pain. Thinking of you constantly!

  31. 31
    Tricia Marble says:

    I am so sorry for your family. Thank you for pointing out the blessings of Afton’s short life. No words could make this situation bearable but know that she is in the arms of Jesus now and is is whole and someday you will see her again.

  32. 32

    Dear Sister in Christ,

    My husband and I were both so very touched by your precious little daughter’s story this morning. Our prayers are with you and your family as you go thru this difficult time. What a comfort to know that your sweet Afton Jean is in the arms of a loving Heavenly Father, who will keep her safe and secure for you until you see her again.

  33. 33

    I’m so sorry for the death of your daughter, Afton. She is truly precious, and I know you and your family are grieving deeply. I hope that you may find some strength and peace through your coming days. If ever you find yourself surrounded by people who are uncomfortable talking about her, I would be glad to listen to everything you have to say about her. I lost a son in 1994 who was born at 21 weeks.

  34. 34

    Oh Kami, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Afton. I will continue to pray for your family for healing and comfort during this difficult time.

  35. 35

    oh sweet kami!
    i’m sorry.
    but so encouraged.
    i am encouraged that you have turned to God in this time instead of away from Him, as I’m sure it would be so easy to do.
    i will pray for healing.
    heaven will be so ridiculously amazing.
    i truly cannot wait.

    (p.s. when you are ready and if you need it, i did a series on my blog on infant loss/miscarriage. it is likely early, but if you need to read the stories of others who have walked this painful road, you may find solace in their words.)

  36. 36

    there are no words, i am so truly sorry for your loss. the perspective you have in your words is amazing.

  37. 37

    I’m coming over from Tidy Mom’s Facebook post. I hadn’t been to your blog before, but I am definitely praying for your family during this time. It’s great when the family of God can support each other even through the internet. :)

  38. 38

    My heart and prayers go out to you and your whole family. Thank you for sharing the blessing of your story. Thank you for your testimony. I’m sending lots of hugs as well.

  39. 39

    many prayers are being lifted to jesus for your dear family. xo

  40. 40

    prayers in bulk to you and your sweet family. i have tread where you are now, and i wish i knew how to help. your testimony is beautiful, and how lucky sweet afton is to have such a mother.

  41. 41

    What a beautiful post honoring your beautiful baby girl. Hugs and loves to you and your family. You’re a wonderful mother and your strength has been amazing through all this. I will be thinking of your family even more now. I’m so happy you had so much time to hold and snuggle her.

  42. 42

    I’m so so very sorry for your loss. I know your faith and the love and amazing strength of your family will sustain you. We may never have met in person but I’m giving you a huge hug right now. Blessings and peace.

  43. 43

    Oh Kami. Thank you for sharing your beautiful experience. You are an amazing woman who I admire greatly. I am praying and thinking of you at this difficult time. XOXOXO, Shelley.

  44. 44

    There really are no words to express how sorry I am for you and your family. May God Bless sweet Afton and sending thoughts and prayers to you and your family during this extremely difficult time.

  45. 45

    Feeling heartbroken for you but there is already so much beauty from that little life and I pray that it will continue. You are in my prayers.

  46. 46

    What a beautiful tribute to such a remarkable and gorgeous baby girl! You are such a wonderful mommy and I can just feel your tenderness and her gentle spirit shining through in your post! So glad you got pictures of your complete family… you will treasure those always. Lots of love and prayers going out to you and your whole family.

    Natalie

  47. 47

    Thank you for sharing this special time in the life of your family with us. It is a true privilege and honor to be part of such a intimate experience. Afton Jean is a pure and perfect beauty – a true angel. Many lives are being changed for the better because of her time here. God bless you and your sweet family now and in the days and times ahead. Love and blessings always!

  48. 48

    Kami, my prayers are with you and your family. I’m so very sorry for your loss

  49. 49

    Kami, I know I don’t know you well but I just wanted to say how very sorry I am. I know how it feels to lose a child and my heart is sooo very sad for you. Knowing you will see her again is indeed a blessing, but it is still very hard. My thoughts and prayers will be with you that you and your family will be lifted up and filled with peace.

  50. 50

    Oh the heartbreak and the love. You have experienced much and I pray you will continue to feel God’s arms around you and your sweet baby. Big hugs to you!!!

  51. 51

    So very sorry that you got to spend such a short time with your sweet little Afton. Your attitude is such an amazing example; thanks for sharing with us. I know someday there will be a glorious reunion. But for now, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

  52. 52

    Oh Kami – my heart is breaking for you but I am glad you had that special time with your sweet blessing! Thank you so much for sharing your story and may Heavenly Father bless you and your family with comfort at this time!

    Amanda

  53. 53

    Hello Kami-

    I don’t think I have cried this hard in a long time. My mommy heart goes out to you and your family. I really don’t know what words are best used for a situation like this. All I know is that The blessings of family (and I believe in your case as well as mine “Eternal” families) are the hugest blessing. You and your sweet family will be with her again one day. Some special spirits are just to special and are meant to be with God and our Savior. God bless you and your family. I wish you lots of love and strength during this time. XO- jen

  54. 54

    praying for you and your family

    (((HUGS)))

  55. 55

    Oh Kami, words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. Reading your story touched me so much and I think it is so sweet of you and quite amazing of you to share this sacred experience with everyone! I know your little Afton is watching over you and will continue to do so for the rest of your life and the lives of your children. You can tell just by looking at her how wise beyond her years she was. She looked so completely celestial. What a wonderful compliment from heavenly father to have blessed you with such a celestial being! As hard as it may be from here on, remember she is just a prayer away. I talk to my little Logan who passed away at 8 months in 2006. I know he is watching over me and I find comfort in knowing that I will see him again and raise him. You and Kyle are both amazing people. Thank you, thank you so much for sharing this with me. It has made my testimony stronger. I am so grateful for the plan of salvation and the wonderful gift that heavenly father gave us to be a family forever. you and your family will be in my prayers. Hugs to you both!

    Shanna LeRoy

  56. 56

    Kami and family, I am so sorry for your loss. Grateful you were blessed with precious moments with her.

    With many tears and sadness for you,
    Melissa

  57. 57

    There really are no words…we love you and will continue praying for your family. xoxo

  58. 58

    Crying with you. Such a sweet precious girl, she came to love you unconditionally, then returned to our Heavenly Father who loves her … and us … unconditionally. I send all of my hugs, prayers, and thoughts to you.

    Love,
    Mary

  59. 59

    Kami, there just aren’t any words. I will pray so fervently for a peace that transcends all understanding as you remember your beautiful baby girl.

  60. 60

    What a beautiful post. Those pictures are so amazing. I kinda forget about Avery and Aiden until I then see those pictures. I lost it on the photo of sweet Avery holding Afton. Such sweet sisters. I love you so much and wish I could give you a big giant hug.

  61. 61

    I am so heartbroken and yet grateful that your little angel is at peace. I will pray for you and yours.’
    Love and hugs, Jean

  62. 62

    Thank you for sharing that tender story. I am teary-eyed from reading it. My heart (and prayers) go out to you and your family. What an amazing blessing your family has had, even if it did caused many tears. It sounds like you have had many very special moments, that hopefully have brought your family closer together & closer to your father in heaven. He obviously loves you and sweet Afton Jean SO much to send her to you & to experience her special spirit. I look forward to hearing more of your story when you are ready.

  63. 63

    Kami- My heart is breaking for you and your family. I’m so sorry for your loss of such a sweet life. What a precious thing your friend did in taking photos for you. My prayers go out to you all. Love you! Amy

  64. 64

    Oh such beauty and sweetness. Thank you for sharing your story and sweet pictures of your beautiful baby girl. My heart breaks for you and rejoices at the same time. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you all!

  65. 65

    Tears are falling for you & your family right now. Although words are not enough to help with the healing, I will continue to pray for all of you. Sending love & prayers your way.

  66. 66

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m praying for the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, to flood over you and your family at this time. ((hugs))

    Denise

  67. 67

    I just have to say something, the tears are just flowing right now. Such a beautiful post, and a beautiful life. How incredible that you were able to give this sweet angel a body! I truly believe these little babies that go back to Heavenly Father so soon are just too precious for this Earth. But she needed that body! And you will be able to be with her in the flesh again someday! The spirit is so strongly telling me this right now. May the spirit of peace rest with you at this time. ::hugs:::

  68. 68

    My heart and soul goes out to you and your family during this time; thank you so much for sharing your story with us. The pictures are amazing and are a wonderful reminder of how strong families can be.

  69. 69

    My laptop is covered with tears. You are an incredible mother to sweet Afton.

  70. 70
    Kim @ Sand & Sisal says:

    My heart breaks for your beautiful family. We all weep with you and will continue to bathe your entire family in prayers of healing and comfort. May God bless you.

  71. 71

    I am so sad and speechless.

  72. 72

    Kami, Kyle and family,

    “Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal”
    Roy and I are heartbroken for your loss. You will be in our prayers.

  73. 73

    Oh, Kami, I am so sorry. Your sweet Afton is beautiful! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  74. 74

    Your beautiful pictures brought me to tears. Thanks you for sharing your sweet Afton. She is a precious Daughter of a King and may your family feel all his comfort and love at this time. My love and prayers go out to all of you.

  75. 75

    Your post is so touching … we just lost our baby on September 26th. Our baby, Micah, was born at 30 weeks. We had that special time with him as well, just a few short hours, before we had to let him go. He was ours for such of a short time, but the time with him was invaluable. You have such beautiful photos to treasure. Thinking of you and your family.

  76. 76

    Thinking of you and your sweet family during this painful time. Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter with us.

  77. 77

    My heart goes out to you and your family.

  78. 78

    Our hearts are broken for you. We’re praying for your sweet family and are comforted to know you had time with her and are at peace with her choice to return to our loving Heavenly Father. May He bless you during this holiday season. XOXO, Kristi + Kelli

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    Jill Sumsion says:

    Thousands of tears for you. What touching pictures of your amazing time together. Thank you for sharing your beautiful baby with us all. Much love. Jill

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    Sara @ Mom Endeavors says:

    Oh Kami, I am so sorry. This post is beautiful, as is your family, you, and sweet baby Afton. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

  81. 81

    I am so sorry. I am thinking about you and your sweet family.

  82. 82

    Oh Kami, my heart is breaking for you. It is so incredible that you got to spend that time with her before she passed, that is such a precious gift. What an amazing little baby! You will have her sweet spirit watching over you always. I can’t even imagine the pain you are going through, and am so sorry for your loss, you all will be in my prayers. Love to you and your family!

  83. 83

    Kami, what an incredible post and story. I am very sorry for your loss, many hugs being sent your way. Your family is in my prayers as well as Afton as she lives with our Lord.

  84. 84

    I am so very sorry. My heart and prayers will surely be with you and your family.

  85. 85

    I have tears in my eyes, my heart goes out to you and your family. Your words in this post are beautiful, thank you so much for sharing sweet Afton with us.

  86. 86

    (tears!) I am so sorry, Kami. You guys are such wonderful parents and that lucky little girl is your angel now cheering you on. I wish there was something to say, but prayers and luvs your way.

  87. 87

    For Kami, Kyle, Avery & Aiden,

    May you find the strength to carry on.
    May you have the hope to hold on.
    May you be the fortress for each one to lean on.
    May you always carry the sweet love of Afton Jean in your hearts forever.

    Little Afton Jean may have been fragile in body, but she was strong and true in her spirit. Or else, she wouldn’t have gifted you with such precious memories with her and of her.
    May the Lord keep your family sheltered in His mighty arms.

    Love and blessings,
    amelia

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    Peggy Gorman says:

    I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet little angel, Afton. Prayers go out to you and your family.

  89. 89

    Oh Kami! I’m sending my love and prayers for your sweet family. I wish I could offer more than that. My heart breaks for you, but I know you are strong and will be blessed. I am so grateful for the knowledge of eternal families and although that doesn’t help to fill the void today, it can sustain you through this life into the next where you can joyfully snuggle that sweet sweet little girl. I love you and your family. You have been such a wonderful friend in ways that you may never know. You are a special, special lady and I am grateful to call you friend. kisses my sweet friend!

  90. 90

    What a beautiful girl and a beautiful gift that you will carry in your hearts forever. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  91. 91

    Kami, Afton is an eternal gift and I can’t thank you enough for sharing her with us in this intimate way. She will forever be teaching you and with you. You will continue to be in our prayers and please know how blessed I feel to know you. i am sending you the biggest hug on earth. Love you to pieces.

  92. 92

    I can’t even imagine what you all have been going through. Just know that there are people that feel your pain. May God be with you and bless your family.

  93. 93

    Kami & family,

    Tears for you today. Not just sad tears but happy tears too, knowing Afton Jean is yours forever. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and your testimony so beautifully. I know that it touched many, many hearts.

    Lots of love and continued prayers,

    Amy

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    Julie Walker says:

    All of my love to you & your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story.

  95. 95

    your post brought me to tears, and my heart is heavy for you and your family.

    little afton is a true beauty, i think the pictures that you have with her will be cherished forever and ever. what a beautiful moment.

    thoughts and prayers are with you.

  96. 96

    Kami I had no idea this was going on. How blessed you and your family are for having her in your life for the short time that you did. A true honor for you to be her Mother and give her the brief life that she needed to move forward to greater things. I can truly feel both the love and happiness and loss and sadness you are going through at this time. You are lucky to have been able to hold her. Precious moments for sure. Thinking of you and sending love your way.

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    Kimberly Cox Killiings says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. My husband and I know the pain of lossing a child. I am praying for your family’s strength.

  98. 98

    There are no words, only tears, to express how sorry I am. This post is so brave and beautiful, heartfelt and powerful. Thank you for opening up and sharing Afton with us all.

  99. 99

    Kami,
    The grace, transparency and strength you demonstrate during this time is amazing. My heart is so full of grief and my eyes full of tears for you and your fam. I can’t imagine how difficult this has been for you all. Your testimony and willingness to share Afton with us has blessed me and will bless many more in days, weeks, and years to come. May you continue to feel loved, comforted, and wrapped in peace.

  100. 100

    I cried the whole way through this post – my heart just aches for you. I will be praying for peace & comfort from the Lord for you & for your family. I am so very very sorry for your loss.

  101. 101

    Dear Kami, I pray that God be there with you through this. I am praying for you and your family because God can heal and give peace.

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    heather cloudt says:

    What a beautiful little angel God is holding right now. Praying for you all.

  103. 103

    Tears. Sending heart healing thoughts to you and your family. Your love and strength will help you through this painful time.

    Such a beautiful post. and wonderful comments – you are truly loved.

    much love and hugs.

  104. 104

    Kami, I am so sorry to hear about Afton’s passing! I will continue to think and prayer for you and your family during this time. I hope that having those sweet 6 hrs with her and having these fabulous pictures will help you heal and know that what little time she had on this Earth, she made a big impact on everyone that knew her. XOXO

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    Debbie Caraballo says:

    What a sweet and loving tribute to your precious baby girl. I’m so glad you and your family were blessed with her, and the time you spent with her. Now she’s safe, happy and healthy with Jesus. My prayers are with you all!

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    Prayers to you and your family. She was a beauty. Sending lots of love.

  107. 107

    I’m so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful baby.

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    Kami, I am so incredibly sorry to hear about the loss of your sweet Afton. My deepest sympathies go to you and your family during this time.
    God, I come before you and ask that you meet this family & Kami right where they are right now. That you bring to them healing, and peace in their time of hurt, and through their healing. I pray that you comfort Aftons sweet siblings as they ponder sweet thoughts of their baby sister. We thank you God for the incredible gift you gave to these parents, you mercy and grace and the gift of Afton…the gift of being able to love and hold her, and the gift of knowing what a sweet paradise she has gone to live in. God from the beginning of conception you had a plan for this sweet girl, I pray that as you welcome Afton home to the Kingdom you will hold her and cradle her. I pray that you will strengthen this families faith during this healing process. This sweet girl’s story will touch many lives God, teaching faithfulness and that even in our darkest of hours you will never leave us or abandon us. Be with this family God, and hold them like your holding sweet Afton. In Jesus name.
    Ecclesiastes 3:1-4
    To every thing there is a season, a time to every purpose under the heaven:
    A time to be born, a time to die, a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
    A time to kill, and a time to heal, a time to break down, and a time to build up;
    A time to weep, and a time to laugh, a time to mourn, and a time to dance.

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    Bittersweet. What an amazing way to document Afton’s day with her family. I don’t know you or your family but I have Litterally cried with you. My prayer go out to you and your family during this difficult time. Now you have a true angel looking down you.

    Hugs!
    Paula

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    My heart aches for you and your family at this time. Two of my boys were in the NICU.I agree it is a miracle that you were able to spend time with her without the distraction of medical equipment. So wonderful that you have seen the miracles in sweet Afton’s life….and experienced some miracles. So so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing her sweet story. HUGS

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    Bless you, your family, and your sweet little girl.

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    At a funeral for a friend who lost a baby to mitochondrial disease, the minister mentioned that all their little girl knew was love. How amazing is that? Your precious girl knew only love as well, from you, her family, and now from her Heavenly Father. Afton will never know sadness or sorrow, only love. And now she is dwelling eternally in it. Praying for you and your family…

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    I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through right now. I’m so amazed and impressed with your grace and strength. You are someone to look up to! I’m so glad you got to spend that precious time with Afton; what a blessing! Lots of loves and prayers to you and your sweet family.

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    Oh, Kami. I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you and your family. What a blessing indeed to be able to do the things you did the day prior to her passing. Your family is beautiful, both in soul and body. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

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    Michelle Spiess says:

    I am so sorry you lost your sweet, little Afton! I am praying for you and your entire family! May God Bless you & give you strength to get through these difficult days!

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    I have been where you are. We lost our baby daughter in the hospital. Praying for you and your family.

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    Amanda Armstrong says:

    I am so saddened by your loss and at the same time, so amazed by you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You are blessed by your strong faith and I pray that faith continues to carry you through your grief. May God bless you!

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. Your daughter is beautiful and your strength and faith are incredible. I will include sweet Afton in my prayers.

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    I am a total stranger but I had to post. She is absolutely precious. I agree that with as heart breaking as it was it is so special that she stayed with you for 6 hours for love, tears, kisses and able to share her overwhelmingly amazing spirit. I too am grateful for eternal families and the knowledge that you will be with your sweet girl again. The pictures of her big sister sweetly crying holding her brought such tears to my eyes. You have two beautiful daughters and a sweet son. Prayers, hugs and love to your sweet family.

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    She has truly touched lives even in the short time she had. You and your family are in our prayers!!

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    thinking of you and your family during this time.
    gina

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    I am stopping by after reading about your family on a couple other blogs. I am sorry. Thank you for sharing your Afton with us. I will be in prayer for your family.

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    My prayers go out to you and your family. There are no words to say how sorry I am.

    Afton was very blessed to be part of your earthly family for even just a little while – I’m sure she’ll be watching over you.

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    God bless you and your family. I am so sorry about your loss…

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    I’m so sorry! I was shocked to read the title of your post, and then I got goosebumps. I hope you all feel comforted during this rough time.

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    bless your hearts! sincerely may they be blessed with peace and understanding and may you endure to the end to earn the right to raise her in a world far better

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    Thanks for sharing your story and your sweet Afton Jean! She must have been a very special spirit that Heavenly Father needed her right back! So glad you got a few days with her and best wishes in overcoming this difficult time!

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    Kami, my heart breaks for you and your family yet I am inspired and uplifted by you. Please please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. Sending love and peace and healing wishes. -Christine

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    Sadie (Steinert) Heugly says:

    I have tears streaming down my face right now. This time in your life takes me back to a year ago. I’m so happy that you got to meet, love and cherish little Afton Jean. I found strength in talking to others who went through similar experiences, so if you ever need to talk please don’t hesitate to contact me or someone else that can know how you feel. You have a beautiful family and now a beautiful angel watching over you! XOXO

    Love,
    Sadie

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    No wonder this sweet blessing was sent to your family — you are amazing, loving and grateful parents. Thank you for sharing yourselves in your hour of pain. I know God will continue to bless your family …

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    Kami & family, I am so sorry to have heard about your loss. I am so happy that you were able to spend that special time with her. What a blessing. Wishing you peaceful thoughts for today & the days to follow. You are all in my prayers. Jessica

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    Sarah Roop says:

    There are no words. Thank you for sharing Afton’s story with us. God bless you all.

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    Such a beautiful post for your sweet little angel.
    I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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    I’m praying now for your comfort. So, so sorry to hear that she didn’t make it.

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    My heart cries and prays with you during this most difficult time in your lives. Thank you for sharing this journey you have had with all of us. I have been greatly touched by this post and your pictures. I have been uplifted and reminded of how powerful love, grace, mercy is.

    I’m praying for your healing and peace for your entire family. – Maggie

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    I am so sorry for your loss. Your words have really touched my heart. ~Lola

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    I’m so sorry for ur loss….I can relate and indeed u were blessed to be able to spend that time with ur lovely daughter. u and ur lovely family r in my thoughts and prayers. take care and be strong for ur kids Best wishes Raahila

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    words are not enough to say how much i feel for you, far far away from you, i do think of you and your family and to your little star who will always shine for you for ever

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    My heart aches for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss and I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. Thank you for sharing your story, it has truly touched my heart.

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    I am sitting here, crying for you and your family. As heart wrenching as this is to read (and how much more to live through, I can’t even imagine), how wonderful that you had some time with you. Your family will continue to be in my prayers and I pray that you feel the presence of God as you walk through this.

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    Joan Forrester says:

    Hi…I am SO sorry to hear about the loss of your precious little girl…we lost a daughter 41 years ago ( she was our 3rd.child) …she was born stillborn (full term) so I can understand how much pain you are in..just know that our Prayers are with you!!!!!
    Joan

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    My heart is with you and your family. I wish I knew what words to say right now. All of them seem too small. I am praying for you and your family.

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    I also am a stranger, and was directed here by Sumo Andrus through facebook. This was a beautiful post, and I admire your strength and faith. I am so truly sorry for your loss and will pray for strength and continued peace and understanding for your family.

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    Renee Simmons says:

    My heart is hurting for you & your family. I cannot imagine what you have went through. All is in my heart & prayers. Cherish this time with your family. Sending love, hugs & prayers.

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    Many prayers and thoughts for you and your family.

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    Thank you for sharing this incredibly precious and touching experience. I’m so sorry for your loss and my heart is breaking for you and your family, but knowing that you know God’s eternal plan is a comfort. I admire your strength, Kami! You are truly amazing! All the best to you during this time of sorrow. God be with you til you meet Afton again.

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    I am so very sorry for your loss. What wonderful memories you were able to create over the past few days with your precious family. My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers, always! Much love xoxo

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    Michelle Rowan says:

    Dear Kami and Family,
    My heart breaks for you as I have been through the same thing. We lost our little Gabriel at 20 weeks in 1999 and have some very special pictures as well. I know it is hard right now to imagine going forward, but the Spirit you have felt during this amazing experience will carry you and your family through. Even 12 years later, Gabriel is a huge part of our family. We celebrate his birthdays, we talk about where he is and what he is doing, and there have been very special times when we have felt his unmistakable presence. He is a bond in our family that keeps us strong and urges us to stay on a good path and to make good decisions. I know little Afton will do the same for you. I wish I could reach through the computer and give you a hug. You have an amazing beautiful family!
    Love,
    Michelle

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    She is so beautiful and perfect. I am so sorry and my heart is broken for you and your family. Heavenly Father will bless you and your family and little Afton will be an active part of your family forever.

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    Thinking of you in your sorrow and praying for God’s blessings on you and your wonderful family. Thank you for sharing your story. You have my deepest sympathy on your loss.

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    I dont’ comment often but do lurk. My heart goes out to you and your family. Words are not enough to make the pain subside, but lean on our Father for that is where our strength comes from

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    Hi,

    I am so, so, so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby girl. She was perfect. Perfect, perfect.

    My heart is very heavy today. I lost my son last month to SIDS and I just found out about another death of a family friend and now this….it is too much. The world makes no sense.

    Please know that my prayers are with you.

    Rose

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    Kami, I just happened to stumble upon Afton’s story last week through a comment left on fb. I do not know you and your family but my heart is absolutely breaking for all of you. As I sit here with my eyes filled with tears, I am at a complete loss for words. I am amazed by your strength, your dignity and the fact that through all the pain you are sharing your story and beautiful baby girl with us all. As a momma myself, my heart truly does go out to you. I know of loss through miscarriage, but I can’t even begin to comprehend how incredibly painful this situation must be for you and your family. You, your family, and baby Afton are in my thoughts. xoxo

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    So heartbreaking. :( I will be thinking of and praying for you and your family. I’m glad you got to meet her and feel her sweet little spirit. Thank you for sharing.

    Aloha,
    Charlie

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    Covering you and your family in prayers

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    Many prayers, hugs, and love to you. She is beautiful!

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    Oh I am so sorry for you loss! She is beautiful and I am so glad you got to spend a few beautiful days with her. I too had a baby early I was almost 21 weeks. I was hospitalized due to blood loss (I had a blood clot in my Uterus) and delivered my precious baby boy Harrison stillborn. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done but the most spiritual thing I’ve ever been through. I hope and pray that heavenly father continues to bless you and let you feel that sweet spirit. Again i am so sorry!

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    :( I am so sorry.. words can not express the deepened sadness I feel for you and your family. I can only express my prayers, and thoughts to you. I will keep you in my mind for a long time.. I am so sorry.. *hugs* *tears* and blessings and thoughts to you.

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    May the Lord hold you & comfort you during this difficult time. Thank you for sharing your sweet story, even though it must be hard. I am uplifted by your strength.

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    Dear Kami,

    This is the very first time visiting your blog…I am not even sure how I found you. Was your post placed before me for a reason…I think so. Being the mother of two grown sons, my heart is crying for you and your family. May you all find comfort and peace in your closeness and love.

    Thank you for reminding me what we should be truly thankful for…Our God, our family and our friends.

    Bless you all and many cyber prayers being sent your way.

    Kindly…Janet xox

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    I just wanted to say my thought are with you and your family at this time…..You can’t help but look at your beautiful angel and be thankful for everything and everyone you hold dear…You and your family got to hold and be blessed by a little angel from God…….We all have losses in our life but my loss made me love cherish and appreciate the family I have been blessed with and now today your loss has reminded me… Thank You

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    as a mother of a 7 YO child who entered this world at 25 weeks (and less than 2 lbs) , I understand the implications and all the health risks and all the tears….I know it can go either way with a preemie and so I truly feel your words and emotions. You were brave just to type them and post about it. Prayers for you and your family right now…………………kathy

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    Your testimony is incredible. I can feel its power and strength through the words you type. I have spent the last half an hour bawling my eyes out, for your pain, for the injustices….but ultimately comforted by the knowledge that you are a forever family, comforted by the knowledge that your precious daughter gained her body, and completed her mission here on earth and is now wrapped in arms of a ever loving Heavenly Father. My thoughts and prayers go out to you, and your family, and I pray that you will have comfort and healing. You must be some special family.

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    Glendina W says:

    Y♥u and y♥ur family are in ♥ur th♥ughts and prayers. We kn♥w Princess Aft♥n is resting peaceful in the arms of JESUS, I’m sure with a beautiful smile ♥n her face. MAY GOD’s presence surr♥und y♥u and y♥ur family with a Peace that surpasseth all understanding. ♥

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    I have never been blessed with having a baby of my own, I can’t imagine the hurt in your hearts right now. My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story with us! I’m sending my positive thoughts and prayers your way.

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    Peggy Wheeler says:

    Kami, you have no idea who I am. I am one of the thousands that follow your blog. I sit here at work with tears streaming down my face. “YOU” are such a very special and chosen spirit. Heavenly Father knows your heart. He knew the love that Afton would feel as she received her body only to return Him shortly after her entry into this world. I felt the warm spirit of your words as I read about the very private moments that you and your family shared with her. The photos, the baby blessing, and those precious hours will be cherished by you and your family forever. Your story will touch many, many lives Kami. Thank you for sharing this with us. For some, like me, it brings back sweet memories of loosing a son (30 years ago when he was 18 days old) and a beautiful granddaughter last year (she was 10 yrs. old.) My belief, as yours, is that we are an eternal family and we will be with them again. Many prayers and much love to you and your family. Peggy

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    You have such a beautiful spirit and positive outlook- it is clear to see why Baby Afton was born with such a sweet spirit herself. The pictures are beautiful, and it is such a blessing that you had that special time with your baby girl. You are an AMAZING writer- thank you for sharing your precious baby girl with us. Hugs and prayers to you and your family!
    xo,
    Laurie Gallamore

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    “God be w/ you till you meet again!”

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    Praying for you I am so deeply sorry for your loss of your sweet daughter.

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    Thank you for sharing such a tender experience with us. Such beautiful photos and thoughts.

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    Oh Kami – how I wish I could wrapy my arms around you and give you a great big hug….. what a beautiful post for your sweet, sweet baby girl. I am so glad you and your family had the opportunity to spend such lovely and focused time with her – what a treasure – there is no doubt she felt the power of your love. Sending you all kinds of prayers and love – will be thinking about you and your family. xoxo

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    thank you for sharing such a tender experience with all of us. what an angel you were blessed with, sending prayers to you and your sweet family.

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    Hugs and prayers for your sweet family

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    I’m bawling like a baby over here. What a beautiful and special little girl you have. You guys are amazing parents and people. I’m so sorry you have to go through this difficult time and I pray that her spirit and the Lord will support you and sustain you. We’ll be praying for you! XOXO

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    Sending our thoughts and prayers to your beautiful family!
    We lost our baby girl at 37 weeks. She never took a breath but she will live on in our hearts forever.
    xoxoxo

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    Oh Kami, I am so sorry for your loss. I have been praying daily for you and Afton. Thank you for sharing. You and your family will continue to be in my prayers. Love and Hugs. Lisa

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    Oh Kami! I can hardly type through my tears :( My heart breaks for you and I wish I could rush up and give you a big hug!

    you are truly blessed and privileged to have such a worthy spirit come to your family and needed back in Heaven so quickly. She will forever be watching over you.

    I truly know how you feel.

    xo

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    erin richards says:

    Kami we are so sorry to hear about your sweet baby girls passing! We have you and your family in our prayers!

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    Crying for you & your sweet family! Happy that you got to spend some quality time with Afton. Lots of X’s and O’s to you.

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    I can’t help but wail with a heavy heart as I read this. I know prayers were answered but not the way we wanted. I will continue to pray for your sweet family. And I thank you for sharing such a special time with us, for it humbles us and makes us realize how incredible life is!!!

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish you and your sweet family peace and comfort at this difficult time.

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    Kristi @ Addicted 2 Decorating says:

    Kami, my heart breaks for the loss you and your family have suffered. I’m so incredibly sorry for your pain. Thank you for sharing about your sweet daughter with us. I know so many more will be blessed by this, and I have no doubt that others will be greatly ministered to by your words. I will keep you and your family in prayer, and pray that God will continue to carry you through this tough time as your heart heals.

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    My prayers and love to you all!

    Nettie

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    Big hugs and love to you and your beautiful family. I believe that we will all be together again, and when we do, it will be as if they blink of an eye has passed.

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    I have no words except to say my prayers are with you and your family. <3

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    Maria Tucker says:

    Kami- we ADORE you and your family, and adore sweet Afton Jean. I just want to say I’m sorry, and you are loved by many many people, especially your Savior and Heavenly Father. My prayers have been and continue to be with you.

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    Kami, what a gift to have sweet Afton in your lifes. To touch her, love on her, and hold her…I cannot begin to imagine how difficult it is to give this gift back to the Giver.

    Your entire family is in our prayers.

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    Sending many hugs and prayers for your sweet family! Wishing I lived near you, so I could do more. You’re families faith and strength is inspiring! What a sweet experience for you and your family to be able to spend those last hours snuggling your baby girl. What a blessing to know that families will be together forever. I love you Kami, you are such an inspiration and a wonderful friend! I will keep your sweet family in my thoughts and prayers. {hugs}

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    Kami,

    Thank you for sharing Afton with us. She is absolutely beautiful. Welcome back to glory, Little One. You touched many lives here in your short time on Earth, and you made a big impact on those who came to know you. Your life is a testament to the love of Jesus. Well done, baby girl. Rest with our Father.

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    Thank you so much for sharing your bitter sweet experience. Thank you for your great faith in God, He is the one in control & He knew that she was probably better off with Him. I picture your little girl beautiful, full of life & love up there with Him, with light brown shoulder length hair & brown eyes that make you smile every time you see her. May He give you strength in the following days to come.

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    I am sending many prayers and thoughts to you and your family. The pictures are precious – cherish those memories (I know you will).

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    God Bless you and your family, and thank you for sharing such a personal experience. You truly are a remarkable person, and God has graced you with a wonderful spirit and strength. Sending you hugs from KY, your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

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    Sorry so for you loss~ I cannot imagine dealing with something like you have just went thru. Praying for you and your family. You will see her again someday in heaven.

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    Kami-There are no words. You’re in my prayers.

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    Oh, I just wish I had the words to comfort you in this time. Praying for you…

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    Love upon love.

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    Kami and family,
    I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for your family, please know that you are in my prayers. God bless you all!

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    Tiffany Averett says:

    Kami–my heart just breaks upon reading this story. You are so brave and strong to document her sweet little life. I could feel her spirit just reading about her, what a special little spirit! We will continue to pray for you and your family. May you find much comfort, healing and peace. Love you!!!

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    Thank you for sharing this with all of us. I am so thankful for the knowledge I have that you will see sweet Afton again. I know you know too. The plan is perfect, but it doesn’t make today (or tomorrow) easy. My prayers are with your sweet family.

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    What an awesome gift that God gave you 7 days with her. I know she went to Heaven knowing how much she was loved. No parent can fathom losing a child so I’m praying that your pain will ease and that you’ll feel our Father’s grace upon your heart.

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    Thank you for sharing your story and the beautiful pictures. Many prayers to your family.

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    I had just stumbled upon your site a week or so ago searching for some projects to add to our Thanksgiving celebration. I returned because I wanted to revisit something I saw here that was so creative and made me excited about making for my family. Alone to find the story you shared of heartache and peace. Although we do not know each other I have a heavy heart for you and wish you and your family the time that you need to cherish your little angel. I could not imagine the feelings you all are experiencing but I will tell you that you and yours are in a special prayer tonight in our home.

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    Oh, Kami. Thank you for sharing such a sacred and sorrowful and beautiful experience. What a full week you’ve had with your precious baby. Those pictures are treasures- seeing Avery holding Afton broke my heart completely. My prayers are that your family will feel the peace and joy that are abundant this time of year, even amidst such great loss. I’m so sorry.

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    There are no words. You are all in my prayers.

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    There is so much love and heartbreak and hope and peace and spirit here. I am holding your family close in my prayers and I thank you for sharing all of this with us. I hope you are lifted up by the love sent back to you by so many people.

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    I meant to put this link on THIS post. I put it on another… just wanted to make sure you saw it. It’s beautiful. XOXO Kami, Shelley http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyX-I-um5Kk

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    Mandy @ Sugar Bee Crafts says:

    thoughts with you and your family – - -

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    So grateful for the knowledge that we have a loving Heavenly Father who has given us the opportunity to be with our families forever! My prayers are with you!

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    My family is praying for you & your sweet little Angel~God Bless

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    Praying for you and your family.

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    I knew by the end of this post I would be in tears, but I read it anyway. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I am so glad you got 7 days with her and 6 full hours with just her and ya’ll. This breaks my heart. Again I am so sorry. Many, many hugs & prayers sent ya’lls way.

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    This just breaks my heart for you and your loved ones, sweet mama. Your little one is very loved as are you. Much, much love for the walk ahead. May it be as gentle as possible. xoxoxo

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    Kami and family~ I am so sorry for your loss. You are already so strong and so brave, you are an amazing woman you I admire and look up to. What a blessing to have those hours with Afton, to create memories, hold her, and say your goodbyes. It doesn’t make it any easier to lose her though. I love the picture with your two girls together. You have been and are in my prayers. ~Ashlee

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    I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you feel the prayers of all of us, and your sweet daughter’s spirit watching over you.

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    Kami,

    Thanks so much for sharing your, I don’t know if you remember me, but I took care of Afton her first night. She was such a sweety. I feel so blessed to work with such perfect little angels. My prayers are with you.

    Sue

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    I am so sorry. Prayers your way. Families are for ever.

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    Oh my, Kami, I am so sorry for the earthly loss of your darling Afton.

    I hope you can feel the love and prayers holding you through this time.

    Much love to you from Indiana.

    xoxo

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    So sad and sorry for the loss of your sweet baby. Bless you for sharing your story and your heart with those of us who didn’t know your girl, but are forever impacted by this remembrance of her. Prayers to you and your family.

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    So sorry for your loss. What a special time with your sweet baby girl. You have a beautiful family and will be in our prayers.

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    You are so brave for sharing your story. God Bless you and your entire family. You are loved by so many and so many people praying for you guys!!

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    I’m so very sorry for your loss. I know the pain and beauty of those last minutes and hours and rituals and will just tell you that you will forever cherish the fact that you were able to hold your baby as she took her last breaths. Sending you love and prayers for peace and healing.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing the story of your sweet, little daughter with us. I know it has touched my life. My thoughts and prayer go out to you and your family.

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    dearest one….although i am a stranger to you (i found this via my friend alison/petit elefant) my heart goes out to you. what a beautiful little spirit afton was. and what a super woman you are, my dear. you and your family are in my prayers. i’m so sorry for your loss…. as heartbreaking as this is, take heart in the fact that you are surrounded by such a loving family, as well as your other children and your hubs. much love to you, alix

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    Julie Kaye says:

    You are amazing! I am glad you shared your feelings, and I am glad in some ways it could be sweet. I have had a similar experience with a niece….which can hardly compare to a mother/daughter/family experience, but I do know how special hard things like this can be when the veil is so thin. I love you and hope you receive huge loads of comfort!!

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    Thank you for sharing your tragedy in such a beautiful way. God bless you and keep you and comfort you until you hold Afton in your arms again.

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    Oh Kami, I am so sorry. What a beautiful girl and what an incredible little life she had with parents who adore her and siblings who will always remember their tiny little sister. My heart goes out to you all.

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    my heart is simply aching for you right now. No words or actions can fill that empty place in your heart. My love and thoughts go out to you and your sweet family right now. I pray that Heavenly Father helps you find the peace in comfort you need. Much love, Ginnie

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    I can’t even begin to imagine how difficult this must be for you. I am so very sorry for your loss. It is a miracle that you were able to hold her and love her for the short time that you did with her being so tiny. You have handled the loss with such grace and you are truly and example of strength and hope. Your tender story will hold a special place in my heart and I will be thinking of you and praying for you.

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    what a beautiful tribute to your lovely daughter. my heart goes out to you and your family, Kami. xoxo

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    Oh Kami, what a lucky little girl to have a mom and dad forever and ever like you two. That love her so much and let her know so before going back to her Heavenly Father. How brave of you to share your feelings and testimony and pictures. You really are helping so many out there that you will never know. I know you have so many around you that can help you feel loved and comforted. But please let me know if there is anything we can ever do to help your sweet family. What a beautiful forever family you have. My heart breaks for your pain and I am sending prayers to you every day to be able to work through this.

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    Kami, my heart dropped into my ankles when I saw the title of this post. I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know we are thinking of you and your entire family.

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    Kami –
    Our love, thoughts and prayers are with you. My heart aches for your loss.

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    My heart breaks for you and your family and yet I am thankful for the time that you spent with Afton, for the blessings that she has brought to your familly, and for your eternal bond. I know that your strong faith will get you through this heartbreaking time. Know that the people around you and those of us whom you will never meet are praying for you and your family and thanking God for the time that you did share with your sweet Afton.

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    Heather G. says:

    Praying for you and your family, I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    I rarely–if ever–cry but this sweet story has my throat sore fighting back the tears. Just as Afton Jean blessed your life for those seven days, I know you blessed hers. You chose each other. My heart goes out to you and your family. Know that many are praying for you and keeping your family–and your sweet Afton–close to our hearts. Love you.

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    Oh Kami, my heart is just breaking for you and your family. I sincerely pray that you will feel Heavenly Father’s arms wrapped around you at this difficult time. Lots of love and prayers being sent your way.

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    Amanda Huston says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I too, lost a baby girl, Emma Lynn, 3/11/04, she weighed in at 1 lb 6 oz. It eventually gave me great faith in God and the day we all meet again. We call it our “Reunion day”. I hope you stay strong, and I’ll be praying for you and your family.

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    And I am not even a cryer…..

    Peace be with you and yours through this difficult time.

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    Kami and Family, thank you for sharing your sweet little Afton with all of us. I am so sorry to hear that you had to part with her, but I am confident that her spirit will never be far from your family, and that you will all be reunited someday. It makes me happy to know that you were able to have such a long time to hold her and snuggle with her without the tubes and wires getting in the way. I know what a sweet experience that can be. As much as I miss my own sweet baby, I am incredibly thankful for the memories we have of her last few minutes on earth. It is no small miracle for a family to be able to experience a peaceful passing in a calm environment, and I am so grateful that you were given that gift of time with Afton.

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    Although we’ve never met, your post just broke my heart… I am so sorry to hear about your precious Afton… May God hold you and your family close as you grieve for your precious girl…

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    Praying for your sweet family at this trying time. Heavenly father has a plan for all of us, including your sweet angel.

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    courtney e. says:

    i have read your blog for a while, but have never commented. please know that my heart breaks for you and your family. you all will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Kami, we don’t know each other, but I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your precious loss. Words can’t say enough in a situation like this. Thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. God heals.

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    dona stankich says:

    My heart breaks for you as you live on without your daughter and the hopes, dreams and desires of life with her. We also had to say goodbye to a daughter 17 years ago at birth. Allow yourself to feel what comes and Be gentle and kind with yourself and each other. I pray you will have helpful people to walk alongside you during this time. May you know the comfort of the Father, and anticipate the reunion with Afton.

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    Kelly Aley says:

    I am so touched by your experience. Our prayers are with you. Know that she lives and has her election made sure. Heavenly Father needed her to have a body and she did. You can look forward to holding her again in the millennium. Hugs to you all.

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    Sending prayers for God’s comfort to you and your family. I am sincerely sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl.
    May Gods hands hold you.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. Many thoughts and prayers to you. xo

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    Kami, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I’ve not commented on your blog before and it saddens me that this is the post that inspires me to let you know a stranger is sending all the warm thoughts I can towards you. Your story has moved me to tears and I’ll be thinking of you often. I wish there was more we could all do to help ease your pain, but I hope you find a small amount of comfort in not only mine, but all the other lovely comments as well. The internet truly does make it a small world.

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    Karen Summerhays says:

    Kami and Kyle,
    My heart aches for you guys and your little family. Just want you to know that we have been praying for you and will continue to pray for you. What a blessing to have that time with Afton and to have the knowledge that she is part of your family forever and will be waiting for you and watching over each of you. We love you guys.
    Love,
    Karen and Will

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    Debbie Adams says:

    I am so sorry to hear of the loss you have had. You are a very strong and inspirtaional women to be able to share all that you have. I was never able to get pregnant except one time and miscarried and tried for so many years i finally accpeted that God knew what he was doing and i needed to accept it and we have. I cannot imagine being able to see this wonderful human little life that you had inside you and now she is gone but God knows what he is doing wheather we like it or not sometimes he just needs the really good ones back to help him so i know she was something special:) I am sure she is one perfect angel. Just wanted to let you know how much i admire you for sahring and helping others that may be going through the same thing that may not be as strong as you. May god bless you and your family.

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    Wrapping you all in love & prayer.

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    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God watch over you all and comfort you.

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    I am so so sorry Kami. I just came across your story this past week and was willing that little girl of yours to survive all week long. I too lost a daughter in the NICU after severe prematurity and this post just makes me want to lay my head down and sob for you. I know the depth of this grief is overwhelming right now and if there is anything I can do for you please let me know.
    Sending a million hugs and thoughts of comfort from one loss mom to another.

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    What a beautiful tribute to your precious daughter. Her pictures are as beautiful as she.

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    First time commenting–I just wanted to tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. I can’t fathom the pain you’re feeling…thank you so much for sharing your story and your beautiful little girl.

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    Oh my goodness, I can’t stop crying. I’m so very, very sorry for your great loss. May God comfort and strengthen you in this time of sorrow.

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    May the Lord’s presence bring you peace, and His embrace bring you comfort, as you mourn the loss of your precious daughter. My prayers are with your family.

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    Kami … my prayers are with you, your family and sweet baby Afton at this most difficult time. There are no words to express how saddened I am.

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    Kami. There are no words. I love you. Families are forever. My family and I are praying for your peace.

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    Sending prayers to you and your family. I can only imagine how hard this has been for you. You had a very lucky baby girl who felt your love. I wish you peace and love.

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    I am so sorry to hear about your loss! Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!! May God give you the strength you need to get through this difficult time!

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    So sorry for your loss. The knowledge that families are forever is amazing! God bless you!

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    Shedding some tears for you and your family tonight and in gratitude for the time you had with Afton and the knowledge that families are forever. Praying for comfort for you all over the next many days.

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    Kami, I am so very sorry to read about the loss of your daughter. I’m glad you were given the gift of a few days with her and I will be praying that God is giving you a peace and comfort during this time of grief.

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    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. I lost my first born in a similar way. He was born at 25 weeks, due to a placental abruption. He did well at first, then day by day got worse. We met with the doctors, just as you mention in your story. They told us what to expect. He died on Valentine’s Day. We never held him without the tubes until the day he died. We treasure the time we did get with him. God bless you and your family. May God also bless the doctors and nurses who take care of these miracle babies every day!

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    What a beautiful tribute for sweet Afton. I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m praying God surrounds your family with comfort, peace and healing.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    I came across your site tonight after two blogs I follow posted your story. My prayers are with you. It has been 6 1/2 years since our sweet little girl went to Heaven, as time goes on, how you deal with her death will change but you will never forget her….
    Having to say goodbye to a child is the hardest thing any parent can ever imagine but the Lord WILL see you through. He will carry you through. I don’t know if someone has already suggested this song to you but it’s a song sung by Selah. It was written by the lead singer and his wife through the death of their little girl, Audrey Caroline. It is called “I Will Carry You”.
    My prayers are with you…

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    Becky Hart says:

    We are so saddened for your loss. Your post is a beautiful tribute to your little Afton. She must be such a valiant daughter of our Heavenly Father to have only needed to come to earth for such a short time. I know you will see her again and then your family be reunited forever. Our prayers are with you all.

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    My heart is breaking for you and your family. The loss of a child is beyond bearable. God bless you and keep you in his mercy.

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    My heart breaks for you. I cannot believe the courage and composure it took to write this post. It was touching and I have been moved my your little miracle. I truly wish I could take the hurt away. I wish you peace and healing.

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    God bless you and your family.

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    :( So, so sorry to hear of your loss Kami. Our prayers are with you.

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    All I can bare think about is what a force for good your whole family will be to others who will come into your life and struggle with this same tragedy. You will provide volumes of comfort and love to mothers and parents who will have to also say goodbye to their babies.

    Much love.

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    In the arms of Jesus, blessed and happy. Knowing this will help with your heartbreak. My prayers are with you and your family. God Bless you.

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    Oh, Kami. :( My heart is breaking for you. I’m so so sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing your special little girl here. Our thoughts & prayers are with you and your family.

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    I’m so very sorry for your lose. I know there is nothing that will help you more then time. I’m glad you got to spend the time you did with Afton and that she touched your lives so dearly.

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    Oh Kami… my heart aches for you and your family. Please know that we will offer a little prayer as a family for your family and your sweet little girl. God bless you all during this time.

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    I was at the Boston Temple tonight and put your names on the prayer roll. Bless you and your family.

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    Kami, I am so sorry. I can’t imagine all the feelings and emotions your family has felt these past few weeks. You guys have not been far from my mind this week and I have prayed for your sweet little baby. I am grateful that you were able to cuddle up with Afton and that your kids were able to meet her and hold her. Your sister was right in saying how lucky Afton was to have 6 full hours of undivided attention and loves. Thank you for sharing your story with everyone in “blog land” I am sure it hasn’t been easy. Blessings…xoxo Zoe

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    when we lost our baby on november 5, 1998, thirteen years ago someone gave
    me a card with this poem and it has meant more to me that anything. so i
    thought i would share it. the scripture on the front is Job 1:21 and inside
    it says:
    ” I was thinking abut what’s ahead for the baby. Can you imagine-it will be
    taking its first steps on the streets of Heaven! Hannah was a mother who
    certainly knows how special a little baby is. Perhaps she’ll be the one who
    will let it hold her finger as it takes those first staggering steps; and
    maybe she will be the one to coax it into taking it first steps alone!
    Perhaps Dorcas will see to it that its hems get let out, and that the
    buttons are sewn on that growing child. And Joshua! Just think what it would
    be like for a child to climb into his lap and hear-first hand- about the
    battle of jericho!..
    Maybe Petrer will take it fishing someday! It will never fall out of tree or
    breaks it’s leg, for there is no pain or tears there! It won;t be afraid of
    the dark for there is no darkness there. The King of Kings, the Lord of
    Lords, he is the very one who said, “let the little children come to me.” I
    expect there will be many a time when he himself will take that baby in his
    lap and let it know a love that makes all other loves seem puny by contrast.
    I wouldn’t be surprised if the Heavenly Father keeps a few lollipops handy
    for just such occasions….
    And one day, you will be greeted with a ” Hi Dad and Mom! I’ve got some of
    the neatest things to show you; and some really fantastic people i can’t
    wait for you to meet.”

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    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time!

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    Oh honey. My heart is breaking. I love you love you love you.

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    Tara Bowen says:

    Kami, Kyle, Avery and Aiden,
    There is nothing I can say that could even help, my heart is broken for you right now. She is beautiful, she was a blessing, a little piece of heaven for a week! Know we are praying for you still in the hard times to come! We love you! Tara Bowen

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    Kami, I just read your blog update. I am so sorry. You have been through so much and I really had hopes this would work out for you. I’ve been praying and fasting that all would be well but who am I to say that it isn’t. What a special experience to hold an angel in your arms. You and your little family will forever be changed. You were chosen to be her mother and no one else can take that role from you.
    You have inspired so many people. I love you and wish I could be there for you. Sending all my love……

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    I am so sorry to hear of your loss; your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. May God wrap his arms around you and give you the strength to get through this…God Bless You All~xo

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    I will squeeze my little girl a little tighter tonight. I can’t imagine the pain you are all feeling right now…what a sweet little peanut she must have been. My heart goes out to you.

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    May God Bless you and your family at this time. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. So sorry.

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    What a beautiful testament to Afton’s short life. The love you have in your family was more than evident in those pictures, although it breaks my heart to see Avery with her sister. I am sorry for your loss and am praying for all of you and your angel. Thank you for sharing these moments with us.

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    I prayed for you all this week and with all my might. I am so sorry for your loss and for your sadness. Little Afton no doubt is such an amazingly important daughter of our Heavenly Father and he needed her back. She has important things to do. I hope and pray you’ll find peace and comfort and that through this difficult time the Lord will bless your home and your hearts with that sweet small voice that whispers that everything will be alright. What a comfort it is to know that she is a part of your family forever and that she’ll be waiting for you all. May the Lord bless you and keep you and know that we’re all praying for you. Take good care of yourselves.

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    Kami and family, I am so so sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby girl, Afton. You’re sharing such a deeply personal story with us is truly amazing. You brought tears to my eyes as I read along as I stood in the middle of the playground watching my 4 year old play. Her life was short but meaningful to you and your family. You’re all in my thoughts and prayers.
    xo Tara

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    I am sending my deepest condolences to your family. You are in my prayers as is your sweet beautiful girl.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. I am reading this and crying. What a beautiful testament in your story and pictures.
    A sweet angel. Thank you for sharing this. Peace.

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    So sorry for your loss. :( Praying for you and your family.

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    Crying as I write this. As a mom of two preemies, my heart goes out to you. I can’t imagine the heartache and grief your family must be suffering right now. I pray that you will continue to find peace and comfort in your faith and your family, and that Heavenly Father will continue to bless you with the knowledge that he does indeed have a plan for you, and for your sweet daughter. Love to you and your family.

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    :( :(:(

    im sending you my love.

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    Lisa Mahoney says:

    Kami and Kyle: Thank you for sharing your faith and experiece with Afton and your family. Our prayers are with your family. So thankful for forever families.

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    Kami,

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. No parent should ever have to bury their child, this I know all too well.
    I can tell you that time will ease the pain. I can tell you that you will have her forever and with he promise II the resurrection you will hold and raise her someday. But I know all too well those are just words that don’t fill aching arms, drain overly full breasts, and heal a broken heart.
    I will tell you this. Whenever you need to talk, I am here. I am praying for you and your family.
    Lots of love…
    Kim

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    Jody Hanks says:

    thank you so much for allowing us to be involved in Aftons short life on this earth. As a family we prayed for you and your family and have been grateful for the reminder of a forever family. We think the world of you and your sweet family and are grateful that we are friends. Just want you to know how sorry I am for your loss.
    Love you all, Jody

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish I had the right words to give you comfort, but please know that you, Afton and your family will be in my prayers. Wishing you peace and strength….

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    My heart is hurting for you and your family. I cannot imagine the pain you are experiencing right now, but I can feel it just looking at your photos. But I also can tell that you loved that little angel with all that you had. How lucky you are to have been able to have her for just that short week. Many prayers for you and your family. So sorry for your loss.
    Jen

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    What a beautiful testimony. Thank you for sharing such a special and intimate time, you really have a gift with words. My heart and prayers are with you and your dear family.

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    I am so sorry- she is beautiful and you are an amazing family. I am crying with you.

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    I am so moved by your strength, and so broken hearted that you had to say goodbye. I just know that Afton felt the love that you all showered her with, and I know that you will feel her loving spirit with you always. Sending prayers to you and your family (and your sweet angel) –

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    Dear Kami,

    There really are no words. Little Afton is an angel and so are you. Praying you and your darling family feel comfort and peace.

    xo.
    Danyelle

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    I’m another mom that you don’t know that has been following your blog and the status of your sweet baby. These are the moments of the greatest joy and the saddest sorrow. We lost a baby girl the beginning of August as well who only survived 3 hours. There is no pain like a mother’s pain, but there also nothing greater then knowing that you have a child waiting for you in the celestial kingdom. We all hope and pray after this difficult life that our children will make it there. You have one there just waiting for you. Know that over time it does get easier. You are in the thoughts and prayers of a mother who feels your pain and joy right now.

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    My heart aches for you. I know Heavenly Father will bless you in the rough weeks and months ahead. Thank you for sharing your sweet experience, in this week of Thanksgiving it reminds me of how truly grateful I am for my family. You are all in our prayers.

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    oh Kami.

    i pray for peace & comfort for you all. what a beautiful testimony you’ve shared with all of us & for years to come. Look at how beautiful she is! you, Kami are one precious person.

    love you!
    kellie

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    Evelene Sterling says:

    I am so sorry! I will keep all of you in my prayers. She looked so angelic in her blessing dress and I loved how she looked at the camera for that picture of her in her dress.

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    Evelene Sterling says:

    Will keep you and your family in my prayers too! I am so sorry for your loss!

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    Thank you for sharing your most special experience with us. And thank you for your brave example of faith! I know your family will be blessed for it. We are praying that you will be upheld and comforted now and always.

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    My heart is heavy from the news of your sweet Afton’s passing. Thank you for sharing her with us. Thank you for sharing your testimony of forever families. My prayers for comfort are with you and your family.

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    Kami, I am beyond heartbroken for the loss of your sweet girl, Afton. However, your sister is so right….Afton left knowing that in 6 hours she was the most loved baby girl on this planet. Thinking about you and your family tonight. You’re all in my prayers and especially Afton Jean.

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    Pat Clifford says:

    Dear loved friends,
    Kami you are an inspiration. For you to share your life with us so honestly and beautifully at this difficult time is remarkable. My heart aches for you both and your families, but I’m filled with joy that that sweet tiny girl was able to experience pure love in her short time here.
    Love always,
    P

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    Ieasha Akins says:

    My heart is so heavy with news of your loss. I will continue praying for you and your family. You and your family are an inspiration and model of faith, and love to me and so many others!

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    Thank you for sharing your precious daughter with us. I am so sorry you had to let her go. I know your loss, as do so many others who have traveled this path. I rejoice with you in knowing that in ALL things He will be glorified and that we will hold our babies again soon. Still praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your blessings, sorrow and grace.

    With love.

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    It is 7.45am, just got to work over here in Germany and logged into Facebook. The usual.
    First thing I have seen, so many shares of this link. First thing I saw then, this beautiful photo of your little one and I just bursted into tears, havent read a single word.

    I wish you strength through this rough rough time…but as you wrote, she is now with her heavenly father, tell it to yourself everyday, she is with him.
    I cannot grasp how hard it must be. I will pray for you and your family.
    MANY BLESSINGS and please be strong. That you even wrote about it, shows you are going the right path. You deal with everything, you let it out.
    Strong woman, strong family!

    much love
    niner

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    So saddened by your story…praying for peace for you and your family…

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    With lots of love we send prayers of comfort for you and your sweet angel, Afton. What a blessing to have her as your daghter for eternity. Families are Forever. I am so sorry for your loss. She is a beautiful spirit and now your angel for life. :)

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    What a precious angel. What a beautifully written post. Lifting you and your family up in prayer.

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    My heart breaks for your family. May you find peace in knowing she is a perfect spirit, without all the tubes that this life brought her. May she always be your guide for this life. For the future be strong and remember the amazing reunion that you all will have in the next life. All my love

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    May God continually bless you and your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing your sweet testimony of a loving savior and the blessing that these sweet spirits are. You are amazing and I (and many others) have you and your family in my prayers.

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    sandra resley says:

    thank you for sharing Afton Jean with us. I feel so honored to get to have been allowed into her sweet little life. We all Thank you and I will continue to be lifting you all up in prayers as this time ahead will be rough but I am sure you have wonderful people surrounding you with love and prayers. Hugs coming from Temple City, CA….

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    thinking of your beautiful family from far far away.
    cheryl xox.

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    I love you and your sweet family. My heart is with you. Please know if you need ANYTHING at all, I am here for you. Your sweet oldest daughter has me in tears. Love the beautiful photos. Thank you so much for sharing them with us. I can definitely feel sweet Afton and her spirit through them. What a beautiful and perfect baby she is! She looks darling in her beautiful tiny dress.

    Much, much, much love at this difficult time. Prayers beyond measure your way. xoxo

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    I found your blog through TidyMom’s facebook post & I’ve checked back everyday to see how Afton was doing. I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t even know what to say except you have an amazing family & beautiful Afton Jean will always be with you. I wish you & yours love & light.

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    I pray that your faith and friends comfort you. I am so sorry for your tremendous loss.

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    Kelli Ellis says:

    Your story of courage and love is so amazing. I sit here at my computer just trying to imagine the strength you have. I will be in prayer for you and your family over the coming weeks, in the meantime, bless you. I totally see how you have been “changed for good”.

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    Here thinking of you all.

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    Kami, thank you so very much for sharing your story–Sweet Afton’s story. Please know that I too am praying for you. I too am a loss mom, and have since created a website that offers support: http://www.stillbirthday.com. I hope there’s even the smallest thing there that may provide you with additional support and love.

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    What a precious little girl that God allowed you to have for a brief moment. So thankful for your testimony that you will see her again! I don’t know you , but I can tell that you would have been the best parents ever to precious Afton. Sending comfort and prayers to you and your family.

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    Sending prayers and thoughts of comfort to your family. Thank you for sharing this.

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    Thank you for sharing….May God continue to grant you His Grace…..your little girl is free from pain and you have an angel…..

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    I found this from amie griffin & wanted to pass along my sympathies. We lost twins @ 22 weeks from premature labor and your sweet Afton doesn’t look much older than they were. The coming weeks and months will be hard but know you will be in my prayers. Our sweet ones would have been 10 this year and though we have two more children, there will alway be a missing piece from our family. I pray for God’s comfort which is the only way I survived the loss. He truly held me up and will do the same for you. ((hugs)). Feel free to Email me anytime.

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    Carrie @ poet in the pantry says:

    My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Kami, I hate to hear this. I can’t imagine what you are going through, and I’m praying for you – I’m happy that at least you got time to spend with her, however brief. You and your family and very brave, and I’ll be thinking of you every day.

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    You and your family have been on my heart since your post last week. I am so, so sorry. Hugs and lots of prayers …

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    Wiping the tears off my face, to wish peace on little Afton and your family.

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    There are no words. No words.

    But you are not alone. We send love and light and hope and prayers your way during this impossibly difficult time. We will lift you up.

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    Brandy Miller says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. She was a beautiful, sweet little spirit. My thoughts and most fervent prayers are with you and your family. May God comfort you at this difficult time.

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    I was triggered to check out your blog from another random blogger I follow. I have to say first, I’m sorry. Like really, truly, deeply sorry you have had so much loss and the most recent loss being your daughter.

    She. is. beautiful. That’s coming from a mother who birthed her firstborn in December of last year stillborn at 38.5 weeks due to a compressed cord accident. I know the pain of losing a child. I never saw my son open his eyes or take a breath. When I saw Avery’s eyes, it took my breath away. I went on to have a miscarriage and I am currently pregnant again, hoping and praying that this could be the child we are blessed to take home.

    All experiences of child loss are unique, different, and heartbreaking. From one baby loss mom stranger to another, I’m so sorry. All of your children and mine are together in heaven being loved and cared for.

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    My heart is aching for you all. What strong, loving, beautiful parents you are.

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    Shannon Roberts says:

    There are no words for your loss but I want you to know you are in my thoughts & prayers. I hope she allowed you the time you needed with her to soon find peace….

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    I am praying for you and your family.

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    Kami I had the pleasure of meeting you and hanging out in Idaho this past October at the Scentsy event. I remember talking about pregnancy and babies and how happy you were. I was so sad when I saw a link to your blog post on Facebook and thought noooo, it can’t be!

    My deepest condolences to your family – you are all in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing sweet Afton with us – she is precious and I am so happy that you got those 6 hours you so eloquently described.

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    Shannon R. says:

    Your post is filled with so much strength…. I am so amazed by it. Sending many more blessings your way and peace to you and yours….Beautiful, just beautiful little Afton you have given her and yourself so much in making her moments on this earth as special as possible~ Now, enjoy your children around you and make their holidays as special as possible…. bless you and peace to you all…

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    Let the Lord be your strength during this emotional time. God bless you & your family. Thank you for being such strong witnesses for life. God bless Afton!

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    Robin Neff says:

    I am not a follower of you blog, and I am not a blogger. but I happened to stumble across your blog via facebook. Iam so sorry for you loss. I pray for you all as you heal from this strayed path of life. You write with such beauty and love of your little girl . Love the pictures, and so glad you had the opportunity to have them taken at such a bittersweet moment in your lives. She is a beautiful addition to your family photos. I want you to know that there are non bloggers out there that will pray for you and your family as you take a slightly different path on your journey through life.

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    Dearest Lord,
    Thank you for giving Kami and her family time with Afton. Thank you for letting them shower her with love. Please hold them up and fill their hearts with the peace that can only come from You. Help them know that the prayers of many are all around them in this trying time. In Your name, we pray.
    Amen

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    Kami and Kyle I am so sorry for your loss…. Afton was a beautiful baby and sounds to have had a beautiful spirit! I’m sure our father in heaven is telling her right now how much she was and will continue to be loved. I can not imagine the pain you are going through right now but I hope you know that you are both truly loved as well! We will keep you guys in our prayers always! xoxo

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    Oh Kami…I am so incredibly sorry to read this. My prayers are with you, your husband, your sweet children and your entire family. Your post was absolutely beautiful to read and I am so thankful that you had that time to spend one-on-one with Afton.

    Hugs & Prayers.

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    I’m so so so sorry for your loss. I pray for strength and healing for your family. Know that you have a little bitty angel watching over you forever.

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    i’m so incredibly sorry to hear about this news, I have been crying my eyes out for you ever since your last post! I too have lost a child, our little girl, and even though everyone’s grief and circumstances are different I know the overwhelming pain you must feel and the longing to hold your baby girl in your arms again. To me there is nothing worse than to have your children die before you, no parent should have to experience that. We received an INCREDIBLE amount of support from everyone and I want to do the same for others who have to go through this devastating trial. There is nothing that can take away your pain, just know that i’m thinking of your sweet family at this time and crying with you!

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    Colleen Aitchison says:

    Kami & Kyle,

    I was so sad to hear of Afton’s death. I remember the emotions of those first few weeks after our baby died. We have been praying for your family and will continue to do so. I would love to talk to you when you feel like you want to.

    Colleen Aitchison

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    You and your family are in my prayers.

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    my heart breaks for you…we lost our son when he was nearly twelve to a traffic accident. this part of life just isn’t easy. i’m grateful you had time to spend with afton. the ONE thing that brings me hope is that i will have my son again to raise during the millennium…and you’ll have sweet afton with you…what an amazing promise! that brings me more comfort than anything else. i will pray for continued comfort. that little girlie knew that her parents loved her and even now, she looks on you from the other side in all her busyness, preparing for that time when you’ll see her again. you will always miss her…there will always be that hole in your heart where she would have been in this life, but if you look harder, that hole isn’t so big because she’s still there…all her promise and potential right there. bless your sweet hearts…and your family’s heart. i hope that your christmas will be bright with your angel constantly near you.

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    Just when I thought I composed myself, I scrolled down to see the your family portrait. My heart broke all over again. I know that by you sharing your story many lives will be affected. Many will be blessed and many will read and know they are not alone in their trials. Thank you!

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    kami, i’m so sorry. i know (from experience) there is nothing to say to make it all go away. just know that so many people are praying for you and the spirit will comfort you in ways you never thought possible. i will be thinking of you a lot. your little afton will be with you every step of the way and will grow even bigger as a part of your family over the next several months. our little luke had simliar brain injury so it broke my heart to hear your news. sending our love, jon and steph bletzacker

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    Calli Clayton Rhoades says:

    Oh Kami and Kyle, My heart breaks for you! I am sure your sorrow is great, but you have amazing faith and a beautiful outlook. What a blessing to know that you are a family forever! Heavenly Father loves you and your beautiful family and he will bless and comfort you. She was just too perfect for this imperfect world!

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    The last gift this child and the Lord have given you is that you will get to raise this perfect child in the millennium.

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    My prayers are with you and your sweet family. Hang in there. Afton is so beautiful. Our beautiful twin girls were born at 29 weeks born with IUGR and brain damage. Our stories are pretty simular. I still am having such a hard time offering words of comfort. I hope that you are feeling the peace that sweet Afton brought to you and your family. Hang in there. Peace be with you till you meet again.

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    I am so very sorry for the passing of Afton Jean. Thank you for sharing the lovely pictures, she looks so beautiful. I love her dress.

    I know that you don’t want to be a part of the Baby Loss Community (no one does) but we are here for you.

    God bless.

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    oh kami, this post breaks my heart. you have such a beautiful family and i know you’ll all be together again one day. your example of faith & courage really inspires me to be a better person. you’re in my prayers! xo

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    Caroline Armelle says:

    My heart aches for your family on the loss of your sweet baby.
    Praying for you.

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    Dear Kyle and Kami,

    It was an honor being at the graveside yesterday. It was beautiful, and bittersweet!

    My heart aches for your loss in this life, but soars with joy for the promises given that we can be together with our families forever!!

    Your faith and strength inspires me and I want you to know that when you do have days that the loss overwhelms the promises that we’ll be here for you with prayers, love, fasting and companionship! We too have felt loss as well as the peace and healing that only a loving Heavenly Father and the atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ can bring! We testify of that, and we love you more than you can possibly know!

    God bless you all!! Greg, Mel and family

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    Kami…what a blessing to Afton Jean to have had her short time here on earth with such a loving family. Your family is a beautiful example of strength, faith and love. Your post, your words, your pictures…they’re just incredible, Kami. Holding you and your family close to my heart. Praying for your peace.

    Huge hugs (and many tears) from Texas…

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    I don’t know you or your family, except through reading your blog. But even though I don’t know you personally, tears came to my eyes while reading your last couple of posts about the birth and loss of your little one. My heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss! I love what your sister said about your time with her.

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    Although I have never come across your blog until today, and don’t know the story of your pregnancy, My heart breaks for you and your family. Such a beautiful baby girl! I’m sure she left this world knowing how much she was loved. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers and hope that you all find the strength to get through this difficult time. <3

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    Ah Kami! So many tears. I’m so sad for you guys and yet sooooo happy you got to have such sweet moments with her. I just keep staring at that top picture. I love how she is looking at the camera and how her finger is wrapped around the other finger. And I love how you described her spirit as too big for her body. Such an inspiring post in so many ways. Thanks for sharing with us.

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    xoxo

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    Kami and Family,

    I am beyond heartbroken for your loss, I can’t stop crying.

    Your faith and gratitude are an inspiration for us all!

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    My thoughts are with you x

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    April Floyd says:

    I am a mere passerby. This story is so sad yet so beautiful. You have touched my life. Bless you and your family.

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    What a beautiful baby girl. I am so sad to hear about your loss, you are in my prayers every single day.

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    Kami,

    Oh Kami! I am so sorry. I don’t even have words, I am just blown away. Lots of prayers & happy thoughts are heading your way. What a miracle to have Kyle be able to give her a blessing & for your family to spend that time with her before she left this earth.

    Please let me know if you need anything. I’m just down the street a bit.

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    Tears and prayers for your family. I’m so thankful you had that time with your sweet little girl.

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    Charissa Knouff says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss. We just lost our baby girl, Abigail, on September 1 in a similar situation. My heart hurts for you and your family. I am praying for strength and peace for you right now. Maybe Afton and Abigail have found each other in Heaven and are having a ball until we can hold them in our arms again.

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    Kami,

    I’ve never read your blog until today, but God is pressing on my heart to send you a message. I am so touched by your story!! I’ve cried and cried over the heart ache you and your family are experiencing right now and I would do anything to lessen this heartbreak for you! But, I know God has a plan for what has happened, there is a reason. I will pray for Jesus to send peace to your heart and mind over the many losses you’ve had. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    OH Kami my friend. I love you and have thought about you everyday since her birth, and can not begin to express my deepest sorrow for your loss. She is gorgeous! I will be thinking of you and praying for you and your sweet family. You have endured much and the Lord will surely bless and make up for all your loss. Know my heart goes out to you as a mother and as your friend! All my best!
    Marti

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    My deepest condolences to you and your family for your loss. God will welcome this little sweet angel into heaven and hold her very close to his heart for eternity. You will be in my prayers …

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    God bless you and your family. Your baby is beautiful. I’m so very sorry for your loss.

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    Denise Love says:

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thanks for sharing Afton’s story, an inspiration to all of us.

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    Kami,

    I was wondering why the Internet was so slow today, but then someone sent me a link to your post. You make me proud to know you. Hang in there. Only one week, yet look at how many people she has influenced already.

    Troy

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    kami, i am so sorry. i have tears rolling down my cheeks. i know there is not much else i can say, but i just wanted you to know that i’m thinking and praying for you and your family…. all 5 of you. afton is beautiful.

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    Oh I am so very, very sorry for your loss of sweet baby Afton. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May you have a peaceful Thanksgiving surrounded by the good memories of her.

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    Kami: I am so very, very sorry you are enduring such a difficult time. How you have gone through all this, and then had the presence of mind to be so un-complaining and so articulate in this blog post truly has to be more proof of God at work in your life. You and your family are in my most sincere thoughts and prayers. (((hugs)))

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    Another heart rejoicing that you were able to see your daughter’s living face, and mourning with you in your loss.

    My three year old son walked in and saw your photos. He says that “She is a sweet little baby, so cute and tiny, I like her.”

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    Michelle N. says:

    Our Lord Father has a new angel in heaven with him……. I am lifting your family in prayers…………

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    What a wonderful tribute to your ‘lil angel. Take care.

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    It is sweet that you were able to spend special time with your baby before she left. She is perfect.

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    You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Thought you might like the poem that has brought us peace many times. May God give you peace and wrap His loving arms around you during this time.

    *hugs* Stacy

    Child of Mine

    “I’ll lend you for a little while, a child of mine,” He Said,
    “For you to love the while he lives and mourn for when he’s dead.”
    It may be six or seven years or twenty-two or three;
    But will you ‘Till I call him back, take care of him for me?
    He’ll bring his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief,
    You’ll have his lovely memories as solace for your grief.

    I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return,
    But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn.
    I’ve searched the wide world over in my search for Teachers True,
    And from the throngs that crowd life’s lanes, I have selected you.
    Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain,
    Nor hate me when I come to take him back again?

    I fancied that I heard them say, ‘Dear Lord, thy will be done;
    For all the joy this child shall bring, the risk of grief we’ll run.
    We’ll shelter him with happiness; we’ll love him while we may.
    And for the happiness we’ve known, forever grateful stay;
    But should the angels call for him much sooner than we planned,
    We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand.

    ~Edgar A. Guest~

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    Oh Kami, I am so heart broken for your family!! Those pictures are precious and made me completely fall apart. What a beautiful and peaceful scene. Avery looks so pure and adorable with Afton. Her tender little heart shows and it is so sweet. Thank you for sharing those painful details with us. I have thought of you often and I pray that you can get through this painful time of grieving. You are now a mother of three and how wonderful to know that families are forever!

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    Jamie Owen says:

    I cannot get you off my mind….I am so incredibly sorry for your loss! We too had a similar situation last year when we lost 2 of our triplets at 25 weeks! These sweet little things are so precious. And your family is adorable! My prayers are with your family and your sweet children! Lots of Love!

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    Oh kami there are no words. I don’t know what to say except that I am so, so sorry. I will continue to pray for you and your sweet family, you have all been on my mind nonstop since this all started. What a beautiful sweet little girl afton jean is. Much love to you….

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    Psalm 139: 1-18

    For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

    1 You have searched me, LORD,
    and you know me.
    2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
    3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
    4 Before a word is on my tongue
    you, LORD, know it completely.
    5 You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
    6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

    7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
    8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
    9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
    10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
    11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
    12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

    13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
    14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
    15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
    16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
    17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
    18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

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    I am new to your blog, but just had to say how sorry I am to hear this news. What a sweet, sweet little girl.

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    I am so deaply sorry for your loss. I have felt so connected to your story. I have prayed, cried and wished that you didn’t have to go through such pain. But Seeing the pictures of your final hours with Afton is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. May you always be comforted by the blessings she provided you with during her time here. I know your family truly does have an angel watching over you in heaven. Just know that there are people who you have reached to through your blog that are now reaching out to you and praying for you to heal but never forget. May God and baby Afton Always bless you and your family.

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    Bethany Jackman says:

    Oh my goodness, I had no idea until just now. Kami, I am so sorry. My heart is just broken and the tears are flowing. I am amazed by your faith. How wonderful that you were able to spend those 6 precious hours with her. I can feel her amazing spirit just by seeing her photos and reading what you wrote. I wish I could see you and give you a hug. Thanks for being an inspiration to me. All my love. -Bethany

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    Reading this, I am struck by the same sense of awe I felt when I read your initial post about your recurring pregnancy losses last year. You are one of my heroes Kami. Motherhood is not for the weak and you my friend, are one of the strongest warriors I know.

    It is easy to feel the presence of love and that of ministering angels just by looking at these beautiful photos. How lucky you all are, sweet baby Afton included, to have each other for always.

    Big hug to all of you. A million prayers of comfort your way.

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    Michelle {Fun On A Dime} says:

    My heart goes out to your and your family. What a wonderful moment you were able to have. You have a gift of expression and I can feel it through your writing. Lots of love to you all!

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    You and your family are in our thoughts and in our prayers. What a beautiful, sweet baby girl! What a blessing to meet an angel on earth! May you find peace and strength in God’s love. May God bless you and your family always.

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    I just can’t get you all off of my mind. I am so sorry that Afton’s time with you was so, so short. I do believe that someday you will embrace her again. Until then I’ll be praying for you.

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    Mom told me today how much Kathy loved babies and we both pictured her rocking little Afton and telling her stories of you.

    So much love! Please call if you need anything!

    yep…

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    Your family is in my thought and prayers! I’m so sorry.

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    Many prayers and positive thoughts for your strong family. I can not even begin to imagine such a loss and I am so deeply touched by your story, your strength and your faith. God has a plan for each and every one of us, and even in her short time on this earth, your dear Afton has touched so many lives.

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    Kami – I emailed you and Kyle earlier but wanted to tell you here how sorry I am and how much Aftons short time here has inspired me.

    Will continue thinking of you,
    Sherrie

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    I cannot begin to imagine your grief, pain and strength. My heart goes out to you and your entire family. Please know you will be in my thoughts and prayers for many months to come. Your faith is such an inspiration, especially at such a trying time. Lots of love, Amanda

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    There are no adequate words…just a prayer offered on your behalf. May god envelope you in His surpassing peace and comfort during this time.

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    Alli Worthington says:

    May our Father in heaven bring you comfort and peace. You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing Afton’s beautiful life on earth with us.

    Prayers for you and your beautiful family.

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    Touched, saddened, and hopeful for the peace of God to be with you. I am so sorry that you did not have more time with your precious baby girl.

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    Kami, what a truly beautiful post. I felt the Spirit.

    Thank you for sharing your heart and soul with us.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    XO

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    I had so hoped for a different outcome for your family. You all have def been in my prayers for the last week, and will continue to be so in the future.
    God bless all of you.

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    Kami and family, I am thankful for your amazing spirits and strengths that are allowing to get through this experience with such grace. I’m sorry for your loss and am thinking of you constantly. Much love.

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    Kami, I am friends with your brother in the social work program and all of us in the program have been keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss of sweet Afton. May her memory be a blessing.

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    Kami,
    You and your family are in our hearts and prayers. Words are insufficient to convey how sorry we are. I continue to be inspired by the incredible grace with which you and your family have navigated through such a difficult time. Your grace enabled Sweet Afton to touch many, many lives during her brief stay here. XO

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    valerie (poetic chronicles) says:

    I just stumbled on your blog and felt speechless and wordless. I deeply perceive how these hours spent cherishing your beloved baby girl, telling her how proud you were of her and how much you loved her, must have been intense and as you put it, ‘sweet’. Your post left me with a throbbing heart, feeling more than ever how the time we spend with our beloved ones is of a heavenly nature. Again, there is no word. I feel deeply for you, your husband and your children. You are very, very brave, and Afton can be as proud of you as you are of her.

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    Kami I have thought about you and your family several times during the last few weeks. Words can’t express how sorry I am for your loss. Sweet Afton has touched so many people and she won’t be forgotten.

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    What a beautiful post about a beautiful spirit. I, also, experienced holding my son for the first time as we watched him pass on to heaven, and I was moved by how well you put into words what we also felt that day. It was remarkable reading the post, and remembering back to that day. Thank you for sharing your Afton with us!

    Peacful prayers to you and your whole family.

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    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Afton is beautiful! Hugs and prayers to your family.

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    Marie in Va says:

    Wiping the tears away reading your story. I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your precious baby girl. Afton has touched so many lives in her short time here.

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    What a beautiful post and sweet baby girl. I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.

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    Hugs and kisses to you.

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Reading this while my nephew is in the hospital on oxygen was probably not a great idea. I’m crying my eyes out!

    I am sincerely amazed by your spiritual strength to share this with all the world. I am so truly sorry for your loss. I just can’t imagine what you are all going through. The name and a blessing outfit is truly beautiful, and the pictures are so heartfelt. She is so beautiful.

    May you all continue to feel her spirit amongst you everyday, through the gift of the Holy Ghost, ’til you meet again! Blessings to you all this holiday season. -kg

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    I am so glad that you were able to spend so much time with Afton. I wish that none of us knew the bittersweetness of holding our child for the first and last time. I am so very sorry. Sending you peace. Take care.

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    My heart breaks for you. *hugs*

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    Hi Kami, my prayers and heart are with you and your family. Afton is such a beautiful soul. I don’t know you or your family, but I can only imagine the joy that will fill your heart the day you are all reunited again. Our God is so great. Continue to walk by faith.

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    My heart is breaking for your sweet family right now! Some times this life seems so unfair, but we do not know our Father In Heavens plans. But know this, he has a plan for you wonderful little angel! And he is holding you ALL in arms right now!!
    I only know you from your blog and Studio 5.
    I am so sorry for your lose, I know words can not take this away, but with time your pain will lessen.
    I just want you to know, that you are loved and admired by many. And you are an example to many!
    I pray I have not said anything to hurt or offend!

    Just know that she will be there waiting for YOU! And your family!
    “Families Are Forever!!”

    With Much Love,
    LeAnn

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    Oh, Kami…big hugs. I just saw about your baby girl on Twitter. You and your family definitely have my prayers.

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    i found your blog through another blog and was so sad to hear about your sweet baby’s early arrival. and then when i checked it today and saw she passed…my heart aches for you and your family. i am so sorry for your loss. please know you all are in my prayers.

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    Katherinemarie says:

    I am so terribly sorry for your unimaginable loss. My heart hurts foe you. All my love and prayers to you now and always!

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    Oh, Kami! My heart aches for you. I can barely see the screen through my tears. I can’t imagine what it is like to loose a baby, but I DO know (as you do) that you will see that beautiful little girl again. The pictures that touches me the most are those of the sisters together. So sweet and heartbreaking. I’m praying for you, sweet friend. I’m here if you need anything.

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    Praying for comfort and peace for your sweet family.

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    So sorry for your loss, thinking of you.

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    God bless you and your sweet family. (so many tears)

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    I can’t help but cry. I’m so sorry. Your strength amazes me. You are an incredible family. I’ll pray for your continued peace throughout this time of grieving.

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    Laura Gray says:

    Kami,
    Though it hurts to hear the news, I am so grateful that you and your family have been willing to share her with all of us. What a darling daughter. It must be humbling to be blessed with a precious young daughter and spend time with her and feel her spirit. I think that there is nothing quite like sharing time with children who will return quickly home. They fill the lives of all that know them. I am so sorry that she had to go home so soon. But, I guess everyone is grateful for those wonderful days.

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    Kami, I just want you to know your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I can not even begin to understand what you are going through but I will be praying for our Heavenly Father to comfort you and yours.

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    Thank you for sharing Afton with us. You and your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

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    i just found your blog via a pin on Pinterest (the yarn balls) and spent a few minutes looking around. I have to say thank you for sharing. I am so sorrowful, even as a stranger, for the loss you and your family have suffered, yet so glad to hear of the blessings that came from your time with Afton. I’m having that kind of week with sick kids and no sleep, so reading your story and hearing your perspective on your life really meant a lot to me and encouraged me this morning. Thank you for your transparency and honesty. It’s truly a brave thing to share something so intimate in such a public forum, and it really ministered to me this morning.

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    I am so sorry for your family’s loss. Be thankful for the time you spent with her and that you are forever changed because she came into your life. God bless.

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    My heart goes out to you and I’m SO glad you had someone capture this special time for your family. I had the chance to do this for a friend and was there when her sweet baby slipped back to heaven, and I hold it very dear to my heart.

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    Kami,
    I do not know you but you share your story so warmly that I listen and my heart breaks for you as if your friend. I am praying for you. xxxx

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    My heart goes out to you and your family. You’ve been so courageous, your family so supportive. Afton Jean has a remarkable family. <> to you all.

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    Kami,

    I only learned about your story this evening while reading Make & Takes, but I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss. As I read this post and looked at the photos, I couldn’t control the tears. Afton is a special baby whose short life will serve as a reminder to me, and hopefully many others, that life can be so very short and we need to fill each moment with love and goodness. I will be praying for you — God bless!

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    My prayers are with you and your family.

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    My heart breaks for you.

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    so sorry for your loss. I can’t stop the tears. Hugs to your dear family my heart breaks for you and your sweet kids. such amazing pictures to have and cherish. You will be in our prayers.

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    Wow. Thank you for sharing with us. Love and prayers.

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    Oh Kami and your family.

    I didnt know any of this, I stumbled over from somewhere else.

    Thank you so much for being brave enough to share the joy that Afton Jean brought to you and your family. Although I am sitting here in tears, I feel so honoured to have heard her story.

    I really dont have any more words for you – wish I did!

    Big hugs and wishes

    Ruth

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    Thank you for sharing your sweet, sweet journey with us and for sharing those precious pictures of your darling angel Afton. What a beautiful story. The gospel is so wonderful – to see your faith through this is also wonderful. May you be blessed as you continue to get through this time. HUGS to you and your family!

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    My heart aches for your family’s loss, and I wish you comfort until you’re able to meet your baby girl again.

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    sending you and your family my most heartfelt sympathies and prayers. I know that the Great Comforter will be constantly present with you, but I can’t imagine your grief. thankful that the Lord has and will use you through this.

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    I don’t even know you but i feel your pain! I just want to hold you so close to me and give you and your family hugs and kisses non stop. Afton Jean was loved no doubt…angel baby in the sky i love you so much….
    My heart really goes out to you.

    I have 2 kids of my own and cannot imagine a life without them.

    At the end of the summer a good friend of mine lost her full term baby, it was a little girl too entangled in the umbilical cord. To this day recovery has been so hard for her, because the truth of the matter is, how do you ever recover from an event like that. We have to be so grateful for what we have a loss is like a dagger to the heart.

    Morn Afton for as long as you want because at the end of it all only you hold the key to your healing :)

    Love Maura.

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    its been sometime since I’ve been on my google reader, so I am just catching the news. I’m not a mother, so I can’t tell you I understand, or I know how you feel. Your story brought several emotions, I looked down on my desk and saw a pool of tears. Prayers go out to your precious family Kami!

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    Oh Kami, I am heartbroken and sending love and prayers to you and your family and little Afton’s spirit. My thoughts are with you all, xo.

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    Teresa Driggers says:

    Hello A friend of mine (Denise Bagley) shared with me about your baby’s birth – and at that time I started praying for your famil and for Afton to beat the odds. i am saddened today for your loss but Glad for ALL of the Happy times and Precious memories you made aas a family while she was here with you. Time does pass quickly and you ALL will join her again. Love a Sister in Christ, Teresa

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    I’ve been reading your posts with tears in my eyes and I’m just so impressed and inspired by the grace, class, strength, and courage that you and your whole family have shown in such a tough time. I can’t imagine how difficult this time is for all of you. Like so many others here, I wish I had something more profound to say, but for now, I just wanted to tell you that my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family and I appreciate that you’ve shared your story with us.

    Much love in this incredibly difficult time,
    Mel

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    Oh, Kami. I’ve been out of town all of December and am just getting back to all my blogs. I’m so sorry to just be hearing about your sweet girl. I love all your pictures and am so thankful you have these precious memories.

    I am praying for your whole family this season.
    a

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    She is beautiful and is so blessed to have you. Your story is filled with so much love and joy, even thought this time was harder than I can even begin to imagine. It really touched my heart. Prayers and hugs for you and your family.

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    I am very sorry for your loss. Though Kami’s time on earth was short, her imprint on your hearts (and ours) will last a lifetime!

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    Tip Junky led me here. I don’t know what to say other than; my heart aches for you and your family. I promise to send prayers to you and your family! I know Afton if in a wonderful place now. And will always be watched over by her!

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    Stephanie Tanner says:

    I follow Tip Junkie and saw the post of your loss. I felt compelled to read your story, I also lost children (Twins) at 26 weeks of pregnancy the day after Christmas. I wish to extend my deepest sympathy to you and your family. I know it is difficult to find comfort right now. Things that helped me were reassurance that you will NEVER forget your beautiful child and known that when you reach heaven your daughter will be there to greet you. Please know that you are not alone in your grief. God Bless you and your wonderful family.

    Stephanie

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    So sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing baby Afton’s short yet sweet life. May your Chirstmas be filled with love, joy, and beautiufl memories.

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    Karen hornsten says:

    I am preparing for Christmas, making Christmas cards reflecting on our miraculous year where we welcomed identical TTTS twins three months early, into our lives in Oct. 2010. We have had a blessed year … 12 grandchildren strong now. Our oldest daughter, who lost her prince charming of a husband in a horrific accident 7 years ago, remarried this year and her four kids are handling that in different stages, and the entire family gathered together for a delightful family reunion. This was OUR miraculous year. And then I read your story which kind of tore my heart out. I feel so very sad for you all. A special soul straight from God is a genuine miracle, and a soul who visits here for a very brief time has a strong purpose to surround those who love her with Godly lessons. This is a perfect soul, that of an angel. I would love to read more of your miracles with this special baby of yours. May the dust of sadness, which never completely goes away, settle a little less around you each day. You already know about the thousands of people that care about you. Now you have another. Sincerely, Karen

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    Our love & prayers are with you.

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    Laurie, from Tip Junkie posted about your sweet baby girl.
    Thank you showing your thoughts in words and pictures.
    I cried as I saw your older daughters eyes looking at her little sister. Beyond priceless.

    May you feel the prayers and thoughts that are being sent your families way.

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    Much love to you all from Grand Isle La

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    I am just now reading your story of your Baby Girl. My heart goes out to you as a Mother of all Girls. I hope that you can feel God’s Love wrapped around You and your Husband and kids this Holiday Season. That God would send you Strength and Love from your community and Church Family, and cover Your and Yours in Grace to make it through the days! What precious memories in your pictures for you and your other children are as well. Many Blessings to You and Yours in the days to come.

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    What a sweet shining angel you were fortunate to have and meet even though you angels time was short. Jeasus must have needed her very much. I remember when Iost my little boy at 20 weeks over 35 years ago. I never got to meet him or hold him in my arms, they just took him away as he was stillborn. Even today to loss is still there, and yes I questoned the Lord at that time. Time and prayer and others love helps so much. I know you have prayers and love in abundance. At this time of year when we are celebrating Christ’s birth we all need to stop and celebrate our children as well. Christ said, ” Suffer the little children to come unto me”. That now holds new meaning to me as I’m sure it does to you as well. My thoughts, prayers and blessing are coming your way a thousand fold.
    Your friend in Christ, Kathie.

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    My heart goes out to you and your family. Four and a half years ago I lost my twin daughters at 25 weeks. One was stillborn and the other lived for 6 days in the NICU. I don’t envy you being at those first stages of your grief. It is something I would not wish on anyone. But know this, the pain never goes away, but it does get easier to deal with. I know our Heavenly Father is watching over you and your family and He has your sweet Afton with Him. You are not alone as you face this trial.

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    dear kami and family. my heart aches when i think of our mortal life when we have to let go of a dear loved one. your family has such a loving focus on the eternal family but yes the letting her return to our Savior and Heavenly Father is tough. Afton Jean fought a good battle for such a sort time. my husband worked at a children’s hospital for many years and would ache each time he held a premee … knowing how quickly they grab out hearts. you and your family are in our prayers. knowing how perfect little afton jean is that all she needed was a little body and a name. your family is blessed. i have friends whom have been in the same place and all i could do was hug them. i have a special needs angel. each day is a blessing for us when we see her smile. a friend buried her little 4 yr old daughter last week after loosing her battle to batten’s. so many angels watching over us all from beyond the eternal veil.
    Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year.

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    Kelly Graham says:

    My prayers and symathies go out to you and your family. I had a daughter that was born with huge health issues and she passed when she was 4. The worst hurt any person can ever have is the loss of a child. May you find peace during the holidays.
    Blessings,
    Kelly

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    I don’t know you but I heard of your sorrow through a blog I follow.
    I, too, lost a daughter and I am sorry for your loss.
    Each heart break after a death of a child is SO hard. Here is poem I found comforting (not the year I received it because I was too heartbroken still but in the years past):
    Tis Christmas in Heaven what a beautiful sight!
    I want you to know everything is all right.
    The crib is adorned with the brilliance of the star;
    Wisemen have come from near and far.
    I’ve met all our dear ones who preceded us here;
    the reunion was lovely, an event full of cheer.
    Tonight we’ll all gather , in reverence we’ll kneel,
    Fr the babe in the cradle up in heaven is real!
    I think of my family that I’ve left behind,
    And I pray that your Christmas is as blessed as mine.
    Please shed no more tears for my soul is at rest,
    Just love one another and live life to it’s best.
    Yes, it’s Christmas in heaven, so I’ve heard them say.
    Yet Christmas in heaven happens every day!

    You will see her again, I know that much is true.

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    My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. I recently went through the same ordeal and know the pain you and your family is feeling. My baby girl passed away at just four weeks before she was due. I will keep you in my hart and thoughts. Take care

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    Jenna Carodiskey-Wiebe says:

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Kami and Kyle – what amazing parents you must be to have been chosen by God to give a tiny soul a whole lifetime’s worth of a world of love in just seven days, the same length of time it took Him to create our world. I know you are heartbroken now but I believe the love you gave Afton Jean will be reflected back on your from heaven many times over and Afton Jean’s true purpose will be revealed to you soon enough. You are blessed indeed though I know at this time that is eclipsed by your grief. We will ask God to lessen your pain and let the light of his love and that of your sweet baby girl warm your hearts and souls and bring you the peace you deserve.

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    Kami – many blessings to you and your family! i know your pain. My Xavier went home to be with the Lord last year from Trisomy 13 which we found out about halfway through the pregnancy. We carried to term despite the diagnosis. When he was born he was surrounded by family and friends then, 2 hours later, went back home to be with the Lord. Know this – you completed the task and assignment God set before you and he is well pleased. Those many nights and mornings I prayed and cried to the Lord asking him why, the only answers I got was “people are watching you”. I accepted the call to carry that child despite the fact he was going to die and it was hard. but I got through it and my husband and daughter did too. The pic of your oldest girl holding Afton stuck with me more than the others. She looks so heartbroken. But this has made her stronger as well. She is a great sister and this loss will make her a great woman! So many people are watching you Kami – and they are drawing strength and encouragement from you and your family and I hope you feel ours coming back to you! You are an inspiration – I had formal pics similar to yours taken but have yet to look at the DVD they are on. I think in 2012 it will be time. We welcomed my second son Trenton the week before Thanksgiving. While my heart is full again, there is still that sore spot occupied by Xavier and and losing him that will always be there but having lost him, I feel like I can tackle anything life throws at me. You can too! Thanks for your walk in front of all of us. You are in my prayers and know that God is still on the throne, he has his hand on you and you are walking in his plan and this was meant for your good. Be blessed – C

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    Kami I am just catching up on all of this and just wanted to let you know that you all were (and are) in our prayers. What a sweet sweet gift you were given even if for such a short time. I’m so sorry you and your family had to experience such a loss.

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    I saw your story through Tip Junkie, I am so sorry for your and your families loss. For the few short days Afton was with you and your family, she received more love than many children do in a lifetime, while I saw sadness in the pictures of you and your family, she had a light in her eyes, she knew she was loved. God bless you all.

    Stephanie @ All Artful

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    I had read about the birth to Afton, but it wasn’t until tonight that I was back to your blog and realized she had passed away. I just want to say that I’m sorry, Kami & family. Thinking of you all.

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    I found your blog and read your posts about your sweet baby Afton. Im so very sorry and your stories touched my heart and soul. I could not keep the tears back. This is such a sad thing to happen and I feel like whatever I say wont be good enough .What a lucky girl she is to have a family full of love and the spirit! .All I want to say is that im thinking about your family, and I have a stong testemony that Afton is home with Hevenly Father who loves her so much. I know that you will see her again someday, and your family will be reunited with her. Prayers and thoughts from our family to yours.

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    Kristi Alexander says:

    I don’t know you personally, and somehow came across your website. The strength that you and your family has shown just really impresses me. The photo’s of your little girl with tears streaming down her face as she’s looking at her little sister really tugged my heart strings. It is amazing the mercy that Heavenly Father shows us during times when we are hanging on by a thread. Your light most definitely shines through all of your posts and pictures. Thank you for sharing your sweet Afton’s story. I’d like to think she’s good friends up in heaven with my baby niece who also passed away days after her birth.

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    Anja Williams says:

    This shows me heavenly father loved your daughter so much and she was needed in heaven. I’m sorry for you lost. it brought tears to my eyes. Im only 21 years old and im going to school to become a NICU nurse. I am LDS and I just wanted to say I really felt the spirit while reading this….

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    your photos and story brought tears to my eyes. i am so sorry for your loss. what beautiful photos.

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    I cried through this entire post. I’m so sorry you lost your beautiful little girl!

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    I am in tears as I write this response. What a beautiful tribute. Those pictures are stunning. So meaningful and just such a precious memory. Wow…is all I can say. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing this story with your readers.

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    Marie Elbrandt says:

    Dear Kami. I don’t know you but I found your site while googling “heavenly father”. When I was in my second year of highschool my sister lost her 3 month old babyboy. She got pregnant right after, and 9 months after she gave birth, this time to a little babygirl. She too died at the age of 3 months. Two children within 1 year. Uor family was crushed. Only the love of God could put a sence of meaning to our sufering. Watching the pictures of your beautiful beautiful little girl, made me cry. II understand how you will never forget her and how precious she is to you. Knowing that you have to let go of somebody you love so much, is so painful, and still so incredible beautiful in a way I cannot explain. I just want to say thank you for letting me look at your family in such a private time. Your daughter is so beautiful. I will never forget the picture of her little face. I wish you lots of heeling and heavenly love. Marie from Denmark

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    I cannot tell you how thankful I am for your story, and that you took pictures and shared them with such generosity and kindness. It means all the more to me since my three children are named Alden, Avery and Arwyn….I hope that if I ever am challenged with an experience similar in any way that I can find the grace inside myself to experience it fully, for all its wonder, and love, for everything you allowed yourself and your children to experience through Afton’s presence among you for that week. You are one of the deepest inspirations I’ve ever…. come across. Thank you so much.

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    I forgot to mention that Arwyn was born March 14…..

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    Ashley Helenberg says:

    Pregnant and hoping for a girl, this morning I searched the web for the baby girl name Afton and came across your blog. I am so sorry for your loss and my heart is broken for your family. I’ve cried many tears for your family today and will keep Sweet Afton in my prayers. You have a beautiful family, Afton included.

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    I just discovered your blog 2 days ago, and looking at your posts, I stumbled upon this.
    I just wanted to drop you a line to let you know how inspiring this post is. You’ve turned a tragedy into something beautiful. The pictures are so sweet and you bared your soul and your family’s pain for all to see. It takes a lot of courage to do so. Thank you for sharing this! I will spend the whole afternoon tellling my daughters how much I love them.

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    My condolences for your loss one day later and a beautiful tribute to a precious little one.

    LisaDay

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    Forgive my mistype, I meant Afton Jean.

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